The alternative weekend is when I have all my children, and having them all there creates too much stress for me to run a game, plus I usually use that weekend to do family things.
I just have throw my hands up in despair at this point. It seemed like a lot of people wanted me to run a game (see
Games again, again and
RPGs ?!?) and based on that feedback I started a game. Yet none of the people who have asked me to run games again has been able or willing to show up!
Now we are back to where the last game ended because no one (again like last time, usually through no fault of their own) can (or wants to) attend.
If the game just sucks, I need to know. Once again I feel like I am devoting a lot of time to something that no one wants, needs or perhaps even appreciates.
Honestly, at this point I am ready to just throw in the towel.
I start my PhD program next week, so my time is going to be at a premium, and I really am not going to have time to waste on constantly cancelled games and unappreciated effort - even though everyone has perfectly legitimate excuses (I certainly cannot fault APewty, and he is awesome at the game, btw). Right now the excuses are good, but the last game started out that way until the excuses eventually became, "well, I got to clean my house" and the like.
I am starting to feel like a card-carrying idiot, eagerly believing everyone is as enthused at the new game as Mark and I are - but now it seems like it is only me and Mark who are enthused, and possibly the only ones who ever were enthused.