So I need to confess...I am not a good roleplayer.
I'm a pretty good GM; I've been told so by many people. But I can see now that I am a terrible player. When I am the GM, I am in control at all times, there are no complete unknowns, and no character I have made can truly die unless I allow it to be so. So when I am a player, I hate my loss of power...and so I become a power gamer, grasping for more XP, haggling (constantly haggling) for more powerful items, and repeatedly checking the rules to make sure my GM is not cheating me.
I get sullen and pouty when my dice rolls come up short more than once in a row. I snidely suggest that the GM is playing favorites if other players get rewards that I don't. My engagement with the story is limited because I always want to be off getting more XP, weapons, or treasure.
I can hear myself doing these things, and yet I can't seem to stop myself. If I were one of my own players, I'd have punched me in the face (or had my character eaten by a grue) ages ago. So I repent of my tabletop sins, and will endeavor to hereafter roleplay with respect for my GM and the other players! Amen.
Oh. . . and also there was this time when the Cloud Giant actually rolled a 19 and I lied and told the players it was a crit. Really sorry.
Well, I feel better now that's off my chest. The confessional is now open for anyone else that needs roleplay absolution.
I'm a pretty good GM; I've been told so by many people. But I can see now that I am a terrible player. When I am the GM, I am in control at all times, there are no complete unknowns, and no character I have made can truly die unless I allow it to be so. So when I am a player, I hate my loss of power...and so I become a power gamer, grasping for more XP, haggling (constantly haggling) for more powerful items, and repeatedly checking the rules to make sure my GM is not cheating me.
I get sullen and pouty when my dice rolls come up short more than once in a row. I snidely suggest that the GM is playing favorites if other players get rewards that I don't. My engagement with the story is limited because I always want to be off getting more XP, weapons, or treasure.
I can hear myself doing these things, and yet I can't seem to stop myself. If I were one of my own players, I'd have punched me in the face (or had my character eaten by a grue) ages ago. So I repent of my tabletop sins, and will endeavor to hereafter roleplay with respect for my GM and the other players! Amen.
Oh. . . and also there was this time when the Cloud Giant actually rolled a 19 and I lied and told the players it was a crit. Really sorry.
Well, I feel better now that's off my chest. The confessional is now open for anyone else that needs roleplay absolution.
