Kaodi
Legend
Might be a bit of a thread hijack so spoiler tags:
If I may be permitted to momentarily crash another thread; by the definition that a writer is someone who writes I am not a writer. I have thought plenty of times that I should write something and I have thought from time to time about that something should be. But I do not actually write things. In part because as long as I do not write something there is still the illusory possibility that the thing I "could" write would be good. And this is despite knowing that first drafts are, loosely, supposed to be bad. Even hot garbage.
I even asked Felicia about this on stream and for about five seconds before she understandably got distracted by something else she said that I should just start with something really bad for the next thirty days. That was seven to ten days ago and I have written nothing. Not even started a new word document or broke out the paper and pencil (which might be a better approach for me). It has been years since I actually even really started the pretense of something. This extends to both fiction and non-fiction writing - it has all been a wash.
There are some reasons for this: I tend to lock my objectives between other objectives, like I have a whole bunch of stuff on the PVR to get through, much of it with my Mom, some of it with my Dad, and some just me. But I also think that I am kind of locked into the idea that if I write something that it has to have purpose. And I do not really think I am up to the task of writing with purpose. Like, did political science and philosophy in university, but that was years ago now, and honestly I am kind of a crank. Maybe a very reasonable crank in many ways, but still (I even described myself as "Likely Internet Crank" in my bio on Twitter, back when it was still Twitter - I quit before it wasn't). I also spend most of my time on video games, though I am in a bit of a lull in that right now, so if I were going to something else now would be a time to try. But the feeling that I if I write it should not just be pulp fiction is real.
I do not really know where I am going to going with this.
I even asked Felicia about this on stream and for about five seconds before she understandably got distracted by something else she said that I should just start with something really bad for the next thirty days. That was seven to ten days ago and I have written nothing. Not even started a new word document or broke out the paper and pencil (which might be a better approach for me). It has been years since I actually even really started the pretense of something. This extends to both fiction and non-fiction writing - it has all been a wash.
There are some reasons for this: I tend to lock my objectives between other objectives, like I have a whole bunch of stuff on the PVR to get through, much of it with my Mom, some of it with my Dad, and some just me. But I also think that I am kind of locked into the idea that if I write something that it has to have purpose. And I do not really think I am up to the task of writing with purpose. Like, did political science and philosophy in university, but that was years ago now, and honestly I am kind of a crank. Maybe a very reasonable crank in many ways, but still (I even described myself as "Likely Internet Crank" in my bio on Twitter, back when it was still Twitter - I quit before it wasn't). I also spend most of my time on video games, though I am in a bit of a lull in that right now, so if I were going to something else now would be a time to try. But the feeling that I if I write it should not just be pulp fiction is real.
I do not really know where I am going to going with this.
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