Truth Through Adversity

A page of a personalised history, a memory held close and now exposed. Simple, elegant, but in a faintly rough hand as if unpractised. The page is aged and a little brittle, the ink faded to grey...

I've been lost for a while
Just on my own in the dark.
I've been thinking as I watched,
The world walk past my heart.
I've put away now all of my childish things,
I've locked up my dreams, what yesterday brings.

Your memory is branded on my lips,
Your face so distant yet so close.
I try to believe you will come
If I call your name.
But you are gone,
And I remain.

The world is an oath
I have taken unto my soul.
But my wishes are alight,
And without them I am less whole.
I would gladly trade all that I am for a single moments rest,
I have looked for the answers you hide inside your breast.

Your path I cannot walk in a line,
They say I will forget in time.
I try to believe that you are there,
If I look hard enough.
But you are gone,
Just my luck.

They try and tell me,
That adversity is the spirit of war.
They try and tell me,
Truth will out, and uncover every flaw.
But I am the child of both tricks He devised for use,
I am the destruction reborn and set footloose.

You tried to tell me,
Before the Lord came and asked you to leave.
You tried to tell me,
That there is more to living than to breathe.
I waited and watched as candles dimmed and stole you from me,
I waited and watched at the edges of death and reality.

You never came back to see me now.
You never saw what I became, proud.
It's too late now,
I am lost to the world moved on.
I am a sword,
And you are gone.
You are gone.

~ Bhryn ~

Render

This is only a memory,
Of a world, time and place.
But despite the restrictions of vision,
It feels as real as being displaced.
Spiral down from the smog filled sky
To where the fire burns bright;
From where the moon is pale and wan
Unto a wholly savoured night.

Hold your pennant to the stars,
And lift your visor one last time.
Take stock of all that has been laid
To rest. Like thee and thine.
They say that myths don't exist,
They tell everyone the dragons have fled.
In your cuirass and shining helm,
One Knight Errant stands, not dead.

If the sky should fall to shoulders bent,
Or the lance slip from your dipped hands.
This world would shudder and tremble
At your feet, felt in all the lands.
If you keep to a path straight and true,
A let a simple song replace your wails.
If God were not cruel as ice,
Then justice yet prevails.

If you will be the dream of dreams,
If you'll trade a kiss for a wish, or more.
Then you will be my Knight Errant,
Rendered, I will be your maiden ever more.

~Bhryn~

See

Sharp and cool as ice,
Fingers have spread down my spine.
Your eyes
Are milky white and cast towards the night sky.
Hands limp clasped
Afore your chest to hold within a beat
Of your tired heart.
Every single tear is of fear, of sweat.

Hair swept and curled
Over a high imperious brow reminds me of you.
You have ever kept your
Face turned away from mine. Is it true
That you seek a place
Where no one can hurt you or take away
All your freedom?
Dreams are a place where you can stay.

If your lips lick
With a small pink tongue one more time
Then I know you
Are afraid of something you can give no reason, rhyme.
Seasons have turned
From summer gold to frost of first snow fall.
Startle eyed you will wait
For a sign that will tell you to move, to stall.

There are no
Prophets left in the lands of the children of God.
You are alone.
In your heart at least you build a wall hard
To keep out those
Who would work their way into that warm.
A faint frown perhaps
As years toil by, a sudden squall or a storm.

It fits not your face
As it is unmarked yet by years soon to advance
And enroach on
The borders of such a worry filled glance.
The stars wink out
One by one they put their etheral fire to rest.
Will you gaze eternal
On those which cannot help you arrest

The fear within?
You know how it feels as the days pass by,
You will stand still,
Like a plaster crying statue fixated to a polar sky.
Your stance rigid;
Your bearing is colder than ever and I cannot
Bring you home.
No one can help you, alone you feel lost.

Perhaps you dare
Not turn aside your face from the celestial pattern
And see me.
I endure here by your side dear one. I learn
As time goes by
That you and I will watch the fire dim from the sun.
I will touch you
And perhaps you will feel me touch you again.

Until then
I can only wish that you will hold on.
Fairest of all stars
You remain on a world long gone cold. One
Of us is chained down.
You refute those bindings they use as traps. We
Will find a way.
Open up your tired eyes, and for once, see.

~ Bhryn ~

Make me Up

Is this the reason you're afraid,
To open your heart to what's delayed
By luck.
If you could only see,
Everything we can try to be
Then this would be, unstuck.
Held on,
You're turning with the world that's yearning.
Love's gone,
But mourning you're a dear my darling.
Lift my soul out,
Of all the burning that's occuring...

Of this dream,
We'll see,
How you can make me up.
You'll seem,
Only of your artistry,
You'll make me up.

I once tried to be a dream
For you and only you to see
My love.
Then that just was not to be,
You ran so far away from me
I gave up.
Some how,
You're breaking down the sky and drowning,
One way,
This earth became a song you're touting,
You'd said,
That you would never leave me doubting..

Of your love,
Together,
Once you'll make me up.
High above,
Forever
Once I've made me up.

If love is just a game
Then why do I fear to play
And bet on us?
Pay the price and make a chance
On what could be epic romance
Or is it lust?
I'm afraid
That everything will turn to dust.
I'm afraid
That all your steel with fire and rust,
I'm afraid..
I've come too far to love and be lost...

To the sea,
Of freedom.
Make me up.
Run away, take away my life..
Just make me up.

I'll put all my trust in you,
If you'll stop the world from turning blue,
Again.
I'll make up the atmosphere,
Tonight we'll be just love and dear
It's all the same...
Oh, make me up.

~ Bhryn

Taken Away

I've been so in love with you,
For as long as I can remember.
You'll always try to take that away.
My feelings were born from the blue,
Never dying in the cold of dead december.
You'd just turn and go, here I'd stay.
I'll call you to see if you recognised me,
A face in the crowd to imprint deep.
You'll always try to deflate me some way.
Wait with held breath because I believe
That when you're dreaming in your sleep,
I'll be stuck in your heart there to stay.
I've been so in love with you,
Even when the sky is breaking beyond.
You'll always turn about, deny and delay.
I'm there in your soul, too good to be true.
I'm the solace for which you've longed,
I'm the single truth that you fear to say.
I won't give up the fight for this,
It's something I can't quite explain.
You know that you can never take it away.
I'll call your name until you return with a kiss,
I'll be your preacher, matchmaker, chaplain.
Until the end of it all, the end of days...
I'm so in love with you.

~ Bhryn ~

Solace


"You have to go there to come back,"
I recall you once said to me.
But never gave me any directions or a map,
Just pointed and set me free.
It's odd some of the things people say
When they don't watch what they mean.
A simple phrase becomes all too astray
So in turn, meaning turns unclean.

If words and phrases were built up and about
In the same world as you and I.
Then they would be a lover's shout
Or perhaps the moth whispering by.
They would be loud or small but ever
Murmured continually in sense.
Holding onto the spaces between forever
And now. The words are dense

Thrown between the pages of books
Magazines and articles of the faith.
Some funny people can throw in funny looks
When I paraphrase myself. Wraith
Monologues designed for my mouth alone
Can juxtapose against another line of thought.
But still I cannot understand a song,
Why the music makes words so fraught

With deep emotion. "No man
Is an island" comes back to my mind.
Do they mean just men alone, or can
It mean women in a broad term and time?
I'm not alone, I am sure, someone in this world
Must share my absolute despair of the language.
It doesn't fit my tongue, or behold
Unto me the sacraments of dead religion. I'd give

A lot of money for you to come back
And tell me what you meant.
I don't know where to go, where to start slack
Or strong. Did you even know why you sent
Me away? I bet you didn't.
The point is, crafter of words and meaning,
I have looked and come back. Isn't
This life but a life we dream?

I went away and found a dream, a solace
From the everyday life and when I return
There is only the hustle, bustle and race
That we immerse ourselves in. Burn
All those books! I won't hear slander
Such as that. Take time
And find another world to sink into.
After all, it is the only crime,
That we fail to come back, because we do not go.

~ Bhryn ~

The wheels that move, they only prove
That silence forges the guilt.
Darkened eyes can only see, what they see.
Soft touches like rain upon bruised lids,
Shut out the cold, you have been told
Tomorrow can only bring the old.
Yesterday became a fantasy, a liability
To which no one will ever return.
Memories are very nice, that's all they are
Or ever will be.
Keep inside among the ice, hold down your fear,
Drowning.
It pulls you under, drowning in those tears.

The sun is sinking low on the horizon, it's been
Dying down every night.
Your thoughts and feelings, still cartwheeling
Around and around your empty soul.
Grass is green, blood is red
And every drop comes from your head.
Today is a day of changes, deranged is
The one who stands against time.
The wheels are burning like the bridges you made,
Into the streams of the night.
Walk quick and don't fall, yearning to see the sun
Again.
It won't rise up, again, see the darkness won.

Make up a moment, make up a song that
Can touch upon every hurt nerve.
It's like pleasure and pain, you want it all the same,
You want to be beaten and used.
Scars on a face that has become commonplace,
Yet no eye has that obscure pain, it tastes.
You yearn to enfold her, secrets told you are equal
So sweet her tones, you yearn for a sequel.
White and black chequerboard, scream out
Try to hold on.
Slipped through your fingers, forgive me my Deus,
Gone.
The wheels stopped turning, gone as soon as the wind is.

Forgive me my Goddess,
Repent all my sins.
The wheels stopped turning,
And so ending, begins.

~ Bhryn ~

Once there was the light,
How warm and sweet, it was wonderful.
It filled up all the spaces in my broken heart.
Now there came the night,
Swallowed up everything, made it darkly dull.
Tore open wounds and asunder me apart.
Two souls came to me,
One was fair and one was dark,
They gave up all that they could be.
I was locked between,
Sin and Sun took battles so stark,
Just so I could be the one they have, me.
Swiftly came the day,
I knew today I would be giving them up,
I knew that I could not exist as I was.
Fire dimmed and did not stay,
It was my soul the warred upon and took,
Soon I was cast aside forgotten, because:

Everything they could imagine
Everything did fade.
My heart was wreaked upon in fashion,
Nothing of me could be saved.
See the lies they decorated,
See me sunk down small.
I forgot myself, what I debated,
Took me a while to stand at all.

Now there is the sun,
His face is fair and warms up everything I know,
Golden showers grace my sparkling skin.
I can live with sun,
The night a friend, no more a foe.
Here is where the story is ending,
I'm defending,
What became of my life,
Has begun.

There will always be those summer fields,
Bathed in endless love and light.
I loved to walk through that long grass,
From Dawn til Dusk, day and night.
There we took our love, to stay a while
And drown in the sun of sweet.
Gold and Silver wash down the waves
As I fall to my knees, replete.
Can you stay with me, for a little more
And love til the day goes down.
There will be those ones, who will never know
All those things we have sown.

~You can keep all my promises to heart,
I swear they bind me strong and true.
No matter how many times I make my vow,
I'll forever bathe in blue, gold, silver and blue..
I'll take all your promises for my soul,
To sleep on in my dreams so soft.
In those days we still have left together,
We'll all find that which we covet wasn't lost...~

Can you remember me, since you went away,
Or even recall our sad story?
So many years have passed us by, awry
Touching me not in lonely glory.
You'll smile as you can still see me, touch my hand
For I remain real.
There will always be those summer fields,
As long as we continue to feel.

There will always be, those summer fields
Bathed in eternal love and light.
Bathed in eternal love, and light.

~Bhryn'o'vyl