My panic attacks aren't like what alot people hear as the classic symptoms, like dizzyness, feeling like you're having a heart attack, breaking out in a sweat. For me, I get really tense mentally and physically. My neck and back get all tight. Sometimes, my hands get kinda shaky and I'll get jumpy. That's mostly when I get in a tense situation. If it's me not being able to go somewhere, it's kinda like I'm paralyzed. I keep trying to get going, get ready, and it's like something's fighting me. I get more and more tense and upset, which makes it harder and harder to fight my problem and get going. It's exhausting mentally, emotionally, and physically. The last symptom, is that when I'm "freaking out" my mind is just racing, sometimes running through several different thoughts all at once. I can't focus, I can't think, and so it's even HARDER to concentrate on doing whatever I'm trying to do. All of it is really tiring and sometimes all I can do after is sleep (plus, I tend to pick being unconscious to freaking out most times.... although sometimes that bites me in the butt when I have a nightmare).
Hope that answers your questions. Don't worry about asking, I'm cool with talking about it. Yeah, it's kinda embarrasing, but I was always pretty open about talking about it and the things I did hold back, messed up things later.
So, again, I thank the wonderful members of ENWorld. Don't know what I'd do without you guys and gals. I REALLY appreciate everything... the support, the advice, everything.
Now, I am off to share some vanilla ice cream with the kittie and then do some reading in bed. Night all.