I'm A Banana
Potassium-Rich
All right, this has gone on long enough!
I'm an aspiring d20 author. I've made some stuff. I've given stuff to some people. I've produced free material in an effort to increase awareness of my mad phatty d20 skillz. I've recieved people telling me that they want to make a book out of my stuff. I've had people telling me they want to put my stuff in books. I've had people put my stuff in books and then completely ignore me after the fact. I had my first bit of d20 material published nearly two years ago by a rather successfull d20 company (not even a startup! It went to print!), and haven't heard from 'em sense. I was promised something like $50 for it (I think it was .02/word or along those lines). Where am I now? Nothing, but my material has sold them books. I had something published in a dual online-print publication by another well-established company. About $30 for the article, and this happened maybe about 5 months ago. I'm still waiting for the check to come that was promised me...
I've had publishers start talking to me, I send them drafts, they say "Oh, we were out of town and really busy," a year later. I've got editors (admittedly, of the more small-time companies that are done as side-projects) sitting on manuscripts that aren't more than 20 pages for months. I've had things published, and haven't recieved one red cent from my own effort and investment.
I'm having a LOT of bad experiences with some publishers out there. A LOT. In the words of Space Ghost: "A Super Lot!"
I just originally assumed it was a mistake, and was going to let it slide. But then more and more stuff started piling up, and now, I'm more than a little angry at being burned like this, over and over again.
I know one needs to be careful. I know a lot of times these are done as side-projects, and the people involved have normal jobs and families and classes that take prescedence over their publishing, and that's fine. But I've got the same thing, and I can complete my share of the work. I can give you material that has won awards. But even those who can follow through and publish it don't give me any reason to keep giving them material because they don't pay me for it, even though they said they would.
I'm not going to name names, and I'm not going to take anyone to court. That's just childish and petty and in the end accomplishes nothing. I'm sure these are real people, with real concerns, and that they certainly didn't *intend* to screw me over. But I've frickin' had enough. If the only thing you're going to do with my work is tell me how good it is, why the hell am I letting you sell it for a profit? If I wanted praise, I could give out free stuff that I don't work nearly as hard on (like the Goblonomicon or the Deity-A-Week thread which some might remember, or the Planetouched Madness thread that some may recall), and make everyone happy. But I've got a talent I've tried to market into something worth spending money on (because I've seen a lot of d20 fans spend money on crap. ), and I've been screwed over.
WHY?! Is this epidemic just my tale, or do other writers suffer from this kind of treatment as well? It's not even that my stuff is rejected...I could handle that...it's that my stuff is accepted, and then it dissappears into some vast black void, or it gets published, and then my *payment* dissappears into that same vast black void.
Have I contacted them about it? Really, would it accomplish anything? I'd rant and rave, they'd say "Okay, do you have the evidence? The reciept? The e-mail", I'd say "I knew I shouldn't have deleted those..." and then I'd be back at square one, but have pissed off some people in the process.
Look, I'm not asking for a lot. I've no delusions of being a multimillionaire on the backs of dice pips. But when people are willing to pay money to buy my things, I'd like to share in the wealth. And when people tell me they're sending my stuff to people who will pay money for them, I'd like that to actually happen. And I'd like for companies who reject me to not just be silent about it. And I'd like those who can't actually devote a few hours each day to their job to not tell me they can and will and to just be patient. I've been patient. I've been understanding. I've been screwed for it.
Why? Is it the culture of victimization? Is being a good d20 author such a worthless thing that people don't really feel bad when they treat me like that? My skills are a dime a dozen, is it, so you don't get a dime 'till you've given a dozen? Where's the professionalism? Where's the *business* end of things?
No, screw this. There was a time, a few years ago, when I would've been stoked to get an e-mail from a startup publisher who thought my ideas had merit. There was a time when I would've been content to not get paid for something that someone else sold, and would have just been happy to get it out there. There was a time when I would put up with small publishers who could take a year to edit a document. But now, all those things have come 'round and bit me in the pooper. I'm done. I've had it. I'm three inches short of getting a lawyer just so whoever decides to screw me over next makes sure to have the sword of justice shoved into their gullet. I'm not being a publisher's whipping boy anymore. My stuff is *good*. It's DANG good (for the most part. ). It's worth at least .02/word, and probably even worth 20k a year. At the very minimum, it's worth the effort, the time, the imagination I put into it. It's worth the purchase of a d20 book (say, $20/mo).
But because I've gotten jacked up so much, because I've been ignored and treated unprofessionally and stepped all over in the grand quest for the paltry riches of d20, I've gotta stop and seriously wonder: how much do you publishers value ME? Am I not worth a few hours of editing a day? Am I not worth the consideration of keeping in contact with? Am I not worth a rejection letter? Not worth a promised paycheck? Can I be ignored?
Yeah, maybe. I mean, like the story goes, every DM wants to publish their work, right? One thing this community will never lack for is creative minds. At least, until you treat enough of them like garbage? You know what, probably not even then. There's a sucker born every minute, ne?
I guess I'm just finished being a sucker. If you want me, I'll be skulking in my room, hunched over my monster manual, my head filled with ideas that would make you money, but which won't, because you're too effing busy to bother doing what you said you'd do.
And the next time someone gripes about the state of uncreative goose eggs that the d20 community is putting out, I really hope you're proud of that, because you've sent at least one golden-egg-laying goose into skulky suspicion. You could all have gold, if you just thought that goose was worth your time.
Sniff you jerks later,
JD
I'm an aspiring d20 author. I've made some stuff. I've given stuff to some people. I've produced free material in an effort to increase awareness of my mad phatty d20 skillz. I've recieved people telling me that they want to make a book out of my stuff. I've had people telling me they want to put my stuff in books. I've had people put my stuff in books and then completely ignore me after the fact. I had my first bit of d20 material published nearly two years ago by a rather successfull d20 company (not even a startup! It went to print!), and haven't heard from 'em sense. I was promised something like $50 for it (I think it was .02/word or along those lines). Where am I now? Nothing, but my material has sold them books. I had something published in a dual online-print publication by another well-established company. About $30 for the article, and this happened maybe about 5 months ago. I'm still waiting for the check to come that was promised me...
I've had publishers start talking to me, I send them drafts, they say "Oh, we were out of town and really busy," a year later. I've got editors (admittedly, of the more small-time companies that are done as side-projects) sitting on manuscripts that aren't more than 20 pages for months. I've had things published, and haven't recieved one red cent from my own effort and investment.
I'm having a LOT of bad experiences with some publishers out there. A LOT. In the words of Space Ghost: "A Super Lot!"
I just originally assumed it was a mistake, and was going to let it slide. But then more and more stuff started piling up, and now, I'm more than a little angry at being burned like this, over and over again.
I know one needs to be careful. I know a lot of times these are done as side-projects, and the people involved have normal jobs and families and classes that take prescedence over their publishing, and that's fine. But I've got the same thing, and I can complete my share of the work. I can give you material that has won awards. But even those who can follow through and publish it don't give me any reason to keep giving them material because they don't pay me for it, even though they said they would.
I'm not going to name names, and I'm not going to take anyone to court. That's just childish and petty and in the end accomplishes nothing. I'm sure these are real people, with real concerns, and that they certainly didn't *intend* to screw me over. But I've frickin' had enough. If the only thing you're going to do with my work is tell me how good it is, why the hell am I letting you sell it for a profit? If I wanted praise, I could give out free stuff that I don't work nearly as hard on (like the Goblonomicon or the Deity-A-Week thread which some might remember, or the Planetouched Madness thread that some may recall), and make everyone happy. But I've got a talent I've tried to market into something worth spending money on (because I've seen a lot of d20 fans spend money on crap. ), and I've been screwed over.
WHY?! Is this epidemic just my tale, or do other writers suffer from this kind of treatment as well? It's not even that my stuff is rejected...I could handle that...it's that my stuff is accepted, and then it dissappears into some vast black void, or it gets published, and then my *payment* dissappears into that same vast black void.
Have I contacted them about it? Really, would it accomplish anything? I'd rant and rave, they'd say "Okay, do you have the evidence? The reciept? The e-mail", I'd say "I knew I shouldn't have deleted those..." and then I'd be back at square one, but have pissed off some people in the process.
Look, I'm not asking for a lot. I've no delusions of being a multimillionaire on the backs of dice pips. But when people are willing to pay money to buy my things, I'd like to share in the wealth. And when people tell me they're sending my stuff to people who will pay money for them, I'd like that to actually happen. And I'd like for companies who reject me to not just be silent about it. And I'd like those who can't actually devote a few hours each day to their job to not tell me they can and will and to just be patient. I've been patient. I've been understanding. I've been screwed for it.
Why? Is it the culture of victimization? Is being a good d20 author such a worthless thing that people don't really feel bad when they treat me like that? My skills are a dime a dozen, is it, so you don't get a dime 'till you've given a dozen? Where's the professionalism? Where's the *business* end of things?
No, screw this. There was a time, a few years ago, when I would've been stoked to get an e-mail from a startup publisher who thought my ideas had merit. There was a time when I would've been content to not get paid for something that someone else sold, and would have just been happy to get it out there. There was a time when I would put up with small publishers who could take a year to edit a document. But now, all those things have come 'round and bit me in the pooper. I'm done. I've had it. I'm three inches short of getting a lawyer just so whoever decides to screw me over next makes sure to have the sword of justice shoved into their gullet. I'm not being a publisher's whipping boy anymore. My stuff is *good*. It's DANG good (for the most part. ). It's worth at least .02/word, and probably even worth 20k a year. At the very minimum, it's worth the effort, the time, the imagination I put into it. It's worth the purchase of a d20 book (say, $20/mo).
But because I've gotten jacked up so much, because I've been ignored and treated unprofessionally and stepped all over in the grand quest for the paltry riches of d20, I've gotta stop and seriously wonder: how much do you publishers value ME? Am I not worth a few hours of editing a day? Am I not worth the consideration of keeping in contact with? Am I not worth a rejection letter? Not worth a promised paycheck? Can I be ignored?
Yeah, maybe. I mean, like the story goes, every DM wants to publish their work, right? One thing this community will never lack for is creative minds. At least, until you treat enough of them like garbage? You know what, probably not even then. There's a sucker born every minute, ne?
I guess I'm just finished being a sucker. If you want me, I'll be skulking in my room, hunched over my monster manual, my head filled with ideas that would make you money, but which won't, because you're too effing busy to bother doing what you said you'd do.
And the next time someone gripes about the state of uncreative goose eggs that the d20 community is putting out, I really hope you're proud of that, because you've sent at least one golden-egg-laying goose into skulky suspicion. You could all have gold, if you just thought that goose was worth your time.
Sniff you jerks later,
JD