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Message: <blockquote data-quote="Creamsteak" data-source="post: 1212449" data-attributes="member: 552">Alright fine. I'll elaborate. Ruin my tiny little quip, turn me into a rant...I don't feel good about myself because I can't maintain my own ideals of myself. I set my standards at what I guess should simply be called "too high". If I'm not on top, I'm losing.I'm not proud of my successes because I want to maintain perfect modesty and admit where I can improve upon things. I want to be on top, once again. Being good is not enough.I think I'm better than a LOT of people for one key reason. Self Motivated. I'm not looking for the common happinesses that I believe most want. Those would be things like financial security, individual power, sexual outlets, and whatever else drives people. I'm driven by a motivation to be motivated, motivated by my own motivation. I might not feel good about myself, but that doesn't drag down my desire to win over winning. I don't feel good about myself because sometimes I fail to uphold myself to a standard of only being motivated for the sake of motivation.I often, and I mean very very often, have thought (or yelled in someones face) that I'm better than them because I'm not looking for anything else, except to do better for better's sake... in more words.Edit: The context of that last sentence needs explaining. I often find myself trying to motivate people, most often people that are my friends, to do something with themselves because they can do something with themselves. Most often this circumstance comes up when someone has chosen to accept where they are at, because they are happy enough for themselves.Blah.</blockquote>

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