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Message: <blockquote data-quote="AuroraGyps" data-source="post: 1971181" data-attributes="member: 1166">1.  Both.  Parties make me nervous, especially where alot of people I don't know are or formal parties (like weddings, showers, big holiday get togethers, etc).  Meeting new people is hard and if it's for something important & stressful (like a meeting for SSI), I'll be pretty freaked  out.  I have problems making phone calls too, the more important, the more stressful (if I make a bunch of calls in a row, I'm actually physically tired).  Also, the depression adds to the problem, because when you're depressed, dealing with people is even harder.   2.  I'm not sure.  I try not to, but sometimes the way we think we're acting comes off  differently to other people.  I'm pretty sure I didn't used to that, but now, I'm not sure.  I just try to be myself, but I also try to make sure I don't get annoying or whatever.  I know that other people are busier than I am.  I know that some people don't want to make the effort to be friends with me because I don't drive and don't have a lot of $.  They don't want me to be a bother and I don't want that either.  I just want people to be considerate, honest, and a little understanding.  Especially now when I'm so rusty at dealing with people, I'm very wary of making any move.  I tried to ask a co-worker if she wanted to catch a movie I'd mentioned, but she was gonna be busy for the whole week and said to get back to her.  I had no idea what to do: I forgot to ask for her # or give her mine or my e-mail address.  I have no life and I don't know how to fit in with other people's busy lives.  3. I haven't played D&D since March of 2001, and that was because of my problem and then the divorce.  I played Changling/Werewolf for about 3 months the beginning of last year, but they didn't like me.  I found out on a LJ site that I was too angsty.  I thought I was just making conversation, talking about good stuff and bad (ok, more bad, but I think that was an unconscience habit because when nothing's good in your life, that's all ya have to talk about... I really had no idea).  Also, they didn't like that I was asking for rides (it was winter in Buffalo and a long bus ride with alot of waiting outside, while it was a quick drive from my place to theirs... I offered to pay for gas or dinner or whatever), and that a couple of times, when they were going somewhere, I asked if they minded me joining (I hadn't been anywhere w/ people for a couple of years... I missed going out w/ people).  They were pretty insensitive and they exagerated about some stuff, but I wish I had been able to explain myself, even though I don't think it would have made much of a difference.So, I don't game.  I don't go to movies (it's not the same going by yourself).  I mostly go out to run errands, go to appointments, and go to work (when I was working).  I also try to avoid grocery stores during busy hours and I don't like malls when they're busy either.Oh, I don't mind answering any questions.  I've always been open about my problems.  In fact, I've had to fill out so many releases for my medical records, I keep joking about setting up a web site with all my medical records and other stuff.</blockquote>

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