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Message: <blockquote data-quote="Greybar" data-source="post: 477878" data-attributes="member: 4938">Self-DoubtThere is all this evil in the world, and it's bigger than me.  I can't defeat it because I'm not good enough.  I'm not strong enough, not wise enough.I made a mistake and a dozen people in a local village died.  I can't bring them back, can't make recompense.  I underestimated the enemy and people died.  They trusted me.Then weeks later evil was too numerous and a party member died.  I had expended my one spell for a bless already, and used my lay on hands to keep someone else up and fighting.  I wasn't able to stop that Worg from breaking through our lines, and its bite killed our friend and companion.  If I hadn't used all of my grace to heal the bard, I could maybe have saved her.  If I was a man of greater grace in the eyes of Heironeous, then I would have been able to focus his holy power enough to to heal her.  They trusted me.A drow has been able to control my mind through spells and made me draw my companions into danger.  We barely fought our way out, but the fault for the trap was mine.  They followed me.In a dream, a former paladin told me of how Heironeous no longer cares for this kingdom.  That the church and the royalty are struck through with cowards and traitors.  He asked me to extend my hand, and when I did so he severed it from my arm.  My sword-hand.  Though it was but a dream, the strength has not returned to my own arm.  Does Heironeous no longer shine brightly through me?  Am I too poor a vessel for his glory?The list goes on and on. It's easy for your mind to turn to the defeats and not the victories.The key is that the GM is not forcing my paladin to fall.  It's something that he's set up, but I'm choosing what path to take.  The game is in hiatus now, but it looks like Reginald will pull through.  But it's entirely possible that Reginald will remove himself from the order, become a free sword, and continue on his quests without the holy mantle...The wonderful thing is that other members of the party are involved (though they may not know the full consequences).  The bard is Reginald's best friend, and each of them help support the other when the weight of the quest is too much.  The druid has wisdom and compassion that he strengthens Reginald with, even if they don't always see eye to eye.John</blockquote>

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