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Message: <blockquote data-quote="Samnell" data-source="post: 835057" data-attributes="member: 130">Dammit. I could have used that to sneak out and... Mark stopped himself and tried not to think about how relaxing just one or two...or three... Swimming. A swim would be relaxing and I wouldn't have to sneak out and screw all this stuff I don't- do -care about. Swimming. Cool water... Mark forced himself to look at Tommy. A few hits would probably loosen him up. I bet he'd like it, and it would get me out of here to score some too. Mark has a picture of himself and Tommy glassy-eyed leaning up against some wall just like him and his friend whatshisname used to do. Those were- BAD times. Bad times. Swimming. It wouldn't take too much to convince Tommy to try it just once. Then they'd be real friends just like- Stop it. Swimming. Swim. Cool water.Tommy looked so vulnerable all the sudden. Guilt hit Mark like that one pusher that time but his mouth was already open, "You know what would be cool? We could go out sometime and..." Mark swallowed hard. "Uh...swim? D'you like swimming?" A fry fell out of his shaking hand and Mark stared down at his plate, embarassed and ashamed.Thankful for the distraction, Mark smiled shyly. "Yeah, it's pretty cool." ...to get someone new hooked up. Got free stuff that way. No harm done, just make people feel a little better. He'd thank me, just like I thanked Michael. Mark recalled the intense haze of gratitude and self-loathing Michael kept him in for all that time, making him steal and worse for his next fix. He couldn't force his thoughts to anything else for a long moment and felt the beginnings of a headache."Pretty cool," Mark agreed again, not realizing he repeated himself.</blockquote>

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