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Message: <blockquote data-quote="BlackSilver" data-source="post: 1854093" data-attributes="member: 22250">Bit long winded- sorry about thatA long time ago I started gaming- we had one DM.  He grew tired and we started gaming less and less to allow him to come up with campaign.  He told us that we would have to gain a new DM or he would have to locate a new group to game with, one that he could Play in as well as GM for.One of the Players got disgusted and left- never heard from him again (what was his name?  Emm- not important).  The other Players and myself took up a position as DMs, and the group lasted a few more years.  Finally life happened on such a scale that we lost touch (military, college, marriage, children, multiple jobs, etc.) and well we moved on to other groups.I have many times volunteered in groups to allow the GMs a chance to play, thou I have never joined a group as a GM.  In my most recent group, one that I have been with the longest I started GMing when we lost one GM, leaving us with one.  My Players have told me that I appear to love to GM but in reality I do not, I hate the process, I loath the prep time and I hate trying to keep things rolling.  All in all I am a Player that GMs so that others can play. I feel that I am robbing the GM of his game time by stepping away from the position of GM, but I know that I cannot GM as things stand now.  I can barely look at one Player at the table as it stands now- I wonder how I will be able to play my present characters feeling as I do (betrayed, slapped with the trust I extended, etc.), but I will forgive and hopefully in time forget, because that is my way.Hold no grudges; release the energy of anger and frustration, because it’s not worth carrying, because those that gave it to me aren’t worth my carrying such energies about with me.  As you seem interested in my lack of interest in GMing Bard I do it so that others can have fun, so that I can “pay my way,” as it were, while there are those that refuse to pay in order to play its not their way to pay their fair share and I can accept that, it is my way to pay.  (Does that make sense?)The group will be getting together soon and I need to get ready.  Everything will work its way out, I know that, and I will eventually get back to GMing and my Players will show their true colors again and my friends will do what is right by me as I will them.Thank you, blessings, and I will let you all know how this turns out as soon as I can.</blockquote>

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