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Message: <blockquote data-quote="Gnarlo" data-source="post: 1722814" data-attributes="member: 2995">I appreciate the thoughts. I don't know what to do about the situation right now, things are just SO CONFUSED. I stumble around in the dark most of the time; problems seem to just keep getting on top of me, no matter how many I get rid of it seems like more just keep coming out of the walls. <img src="https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f641.png" class="smilie smilie--emoji" loading="lazy" width="64" height="64" alt=":(" title="Frown    :("  data-smilie="3"data-shortname=":(" />If she didn't act like a QUEEN all the time it'd be easier. I think a large part of the problem might be our obsessive relationship, I've studied everything about her like she was an experiment. I'll admit, I WAS trying to recreate my  old girlfreind, but by gods if she isn't everything she was and more. And she's just as intense, when she looks at you you feel at times as if she wants to reach down your throat and rip your heart out <img src="https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f641.png" class="smilie smilie--emoji" loading="lazy" width="64" height="64" alt=":(" title="Frown    :("  data-smilie="3"data-shortname=":(" />  She gets so focused on what shes doing. There's a fire about her that my old girl didn't have, she smoulders at times, I swear if I were to cut her she'd burn me. I know that I should back off, let her do what she wants (like I could stop her) but, man, there have been so MANY good times. Before everything started going to pot, we'd go out exploring, poke around in junk piles looking for interesting stuff, we went to a few off beat religious meetings <img src="https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f642.png" class="smilie smilie--emoji" loading="lazy" width="64" height="64" alt=":)" title="Smile    :)"  data-smilie="1"data-shortname=":)" /> So much FUN. she used to like to do so many things, I remember this one time out wandering around and we missed our ride, we just built a fire and sang a few songs <img src="https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f642.png" class="smilie smilie--emoji" loading="lazy" width="64" height="64" alt=":)" title="Smile    :)"  data-smilie="1"data-shortname=":)" /> . Now? every once in a while she'll go to the gym and throw a ball around, but otherwise she spends all her time locked up in the lab. <img src="https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f641.png" class="smilie smilie--emoji" loading="lazy" width="64" height="64" alt=":(" title="Frown    :("  data-smilie="3"data-shortname=":(" /> (at least the blond girl with the spying brother had her swords and horses to occupy her so that I didn't have to).I know I haven't got very long, "THE BEAST" (the leader of the group of freelancers) is planning on getting out of here really soon, they basically just came to drop off a delivery for the company. I really think she's planning on leaving with him (he's not making any secret of his flirting with her, he was bragging about how he could "get her off" right in front of everyone). I don't know what I'm going to do, but I know whatever I'm going to do, I've got to do it fast. Thanks for listening.</blockquote>

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