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Message: <blockquote data-quote="Hawken" data-source="post: 1911971" data-attributes="member: 23619">Benara's Personality:Benara can be charming and engaging, the ‘belle’ of the ball, when she is able to forget her concerns and just enjoy the moment. She is attractive and her eyes are piercing and intense, something she is utterly aware of and often wonders if it is because of her past association with a vampire. No longer naïve, she is aware that there is a lot more to life than just reading and learning, that it is a process, not a goal. She has begun to pay attention to men, but is unsure of what to “do” with them. Because of her near-murder by men and then her utter debasement by another man (vampire), she cannot yet trust them, but she also does not trust herself around them either and this tends to leave her very confused about her emotions. She can be a good leader, if she chose to. Her ability to analyze problems and find the best solution, at the time, is strong, but she is not yet entirely comfortable ‘giving orders’ or with bearing responsibility for others.     Her mind is sharp, and while she is able to focus so intently on a given task to the point of ignoring the world around her, she is prone to distraction when not completely focused. She can multi-task, but does not like doing so, thinking that it is more distracting than focusing on one thing at a time. Her past has taught her much and it is her will that has kept her from going mad up to now. She is wise enough to know that while she does know a lot, there is much more she doesn’t know. She is very introspective and prone to moods of silence that border on meditation. Benara has a strong voice of many tones. When she is sure of herself and confident, her voice is firm and commanding, but when she is confused or distracted it considerably softens, almost to a squeak. When singing, she can run a wide range of tones, even sounding a deep as a man’s voice or as light and high as a bird chirping or a whistle. She is graceful and quick, moving fluidly and in a manner that seems to match her mood and her voice. She is limber and amazingly flexible, but this is something that she rarely displays as it reminds her too much of how Fian took advantage of that flexibility to further debase her. So, her dances are simple and seemingly basic, yet she performs them with practiced and deceptive ease.Benara misses her family very much but feels she cannot return to them as she is. She has many inner demons she has to deal with and currently sees the church of the Morninglord as her only way to defeat those demons. When she is able to do that, then she will return to her parents, but not before. She is trusting but not foolish and while she makes friends easily enough, she still keeps them at a certain distance, not letting them get too close to her emotionally. The only time Benara can truly be at peace is when a book is before her. When she is reading, it is as if her mind is nothing more than a rag soaking up the gush of knowledge that the pages have to offer. Her emotions, her past, all the dark things in her soul vanish and she is just learning. Her mind is burned though by the knowledge she has gained and while she is aware of the darker things she has learned, she still has not processed much of that information or thought it out entirely to its logical conclusions. She is aware of the true nature of the rulers of both her home of Barovia and her scholarly home of Darkon and the nature of those lands and the implications of that knowledge does frighten her. She is aware that many other lands are like that and that many powerful, dark beings are imprisoned, but she does not regret knowing it either. Times were simpler when she didn’t. But now that she does, she just has to figure out how best to put that information to use….</blockquote>

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