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Message: <blockquote data-quote="Bagpuss" data-source="post: 6093789" data-attributes="member: 3987">I did this when I was in a bit of a depression <a href="http://www.circvsmaximvs.com/forum/showthread.php?81081-Yourself-as-an-RPG-character" target="_blank">on ENWorld's sister site</a>...I've gone for Don't Rest Your Head because I haven't been sleeping well recently.My Name is.... DaveAnd I am.... Middle-aged IT Technician.What's been keeping you awake?Worry, I've started to worry about everything, most of my life I've been pretty carefree, but with a wife and kids depending on me now, I worry about the slightest thing. Mainly I worry about money, how we are going to pay for everything, which is daft because the only debt we have is our mortgage and we actually save a bit each month, yet I still worry, about everything. If I'm driving I worry the car is about to break down, if it's windy I worry the roof will blow off the house. I lie in bed at night just thinking up new things to worry about. Usually little things that if I looked at them logically, we could easily sort out if they happened but sometimes big stuff that I could do nothing to stop, or prevent, like a plane crashing into my kids school.What's just happened to you?A plane has just crashed into my kids school. I was on my way to pick them up and now their gone, I mean literally gone, I foolishly ran into the wreckage and they aren't there, their are bodies so many bodies but I'm sure my kids aren't among them. Is that good or bad? I dropped them off that morning, the school would have called if they needed picking up, I worry about where they are now. But worse than that I worry that I caused the crash, just by imagining the worse thing that could happen.What's of the surface?Cool and calm, a pillar of strength to those that have problems around him, able to be a shoulder to cry on, lend a friendly ear, give sound advice and comfort. Totally laid back.What lies beneath?Doubt and fear. Doubt in myself and fear of failure. This leads to crippling inaction, which comes off on the surface as a laid back attitude. Worry about the thing I could have change but didn't due to this inaction just builds and builds, leading to the sleepless nights. The sleeplessness leads to more worry and more fear and more inaction, and more sleeplessness.What's your path?To come to accept the things he cannot change and actually change the things he can. Find his kids and restore his family again.ResponsesFight 0 Flight 3Exhaustion TalentCan defeat any lock, hack any computer system.Madness TalentThings he worries about (just bad stuff) come true, but only seem to affect the people around him.(1-2 dice) It can start to rain (especially if I don't have a coat) or get really windy. Someone could trip and suffer a minor injury. A door or gun is jammed, or they loose their wallet.(3-4 dice) A gun missfires, car crashes, or some other serious accident.(5-6 dice) Tsunami, hurricane, earthquakes, volanic erruptions, air crash, major stockmarket crash and other disasters occur.</blockquote>

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