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<blockquote data-quote="AuroraGyps" data-source="post: 1490011" data-attributes="member: 1166">For the past 3 months I was in a Changeling/Werewolf and I thought it was going well.&nbsp; I hadn't played in almost 3 years because my ex-husband and I were getting a divorce and the group went with him.&nbsp; Those 3 years were a big mess: no car, no job, no friends, no family near me, and most of all, a bad social anxiety disorder and depression.&nbsp; So when I finally found a game I was pretty happy, but nervous.&nbsp; I thought things were going ok.&nbsp; Well, the game was just scrapped by the GM for what she said was creative reasons, but I just found out on LJ that it had alot to do with me.&nbsp; Everything was exaggerated... my making what I thought was conversation and occationaly mentioning bad things that happened to me got me the nickname AngstGirl on the LJ.&nbsp; My asking for rides (taking a bus took 1+ hours to get to house 10 minutes from mine...and this winter was freezeing in Buffalo) turned into me thinking everyone was my chauffer ( I did ask for help getting a 5 shelf bookcase once, because I had no other way &amp; once we stopped by my job for me to check the schedule when I'd hurt my back and couldn't walk to the place like I usually do). There's more.&nbsp;&nbsp; Everything I did and said was blown out of proportion.&nbsp; No one ever told me about all this, though they say they tried to hint.&nbsp; Worst of all, a couple of people stuck up for me and it helped to ruin things between them and the GM (there were other things, no one's perfect, but this didn't help).Meanwhile I'm very frustrated and upset.&nbsp; I was pretty rusty with dealing with people and really nervous.&nbsp; What happened with my old friends really did a number on me.&nbsp; I don't trust people anymore.... and I guess I'm right not to.&nbsp; I mean, am I supposed to talk only when gaming and only about gaming.&nbsp; I'm 31 years old and I don't know how to make friends. <img src="https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f641.png" class="smilie smilie--emoji" loading="lazy" width="64" height="64" alt=":(" title="Frown&nbsp; &nbsp; :("&nbsp; data-smilie="3"data-shortname=":(" />&nbsp; Ye Gods, but that's sad.Yech, things are really a mess and I'm not sure what I'm doing, but I hope it's ok that I'm venting here.&nbsp; Any advice is welcome on finding a new group or how to be more that just a game group, because I haven't got a clue.</blockquote>

[QUOTE="AuroraGyps, post: 1490011, member: 1166"] For the past 3 months I was in a Changeling/Werewolf and I thought it was going well. I hadn't played in almost 3 years because my ex-husband and I were getting a divorce and the group went with him. Those 3 years were a big mess: no car, no job, no friends, no family near me, and most of all, a bad social anxiety disorder and depression. So when I finally found a game I was pretty happy, but nervous. I thought things were going ok. Well, the game was just scrapped by the GM for what she said was creative reasons, but I just found out on LJ that it had alot to do with me. Everything was exaggerated... my making what I thought was conversation and occationaly mentioning bad things that happened to me got me the nickname AngstGirl on the LJ. My asking for rides (taking a bus took 1+ hours to get to house 10 minutes from mine...and this winter was freezeing in Buffalo) turned into me thinking everyone was my chauffer ( I did ask for help getting a 5 shelf bookcase once, because I had no other way & once we stopped by my job for me to check the schedule when I'd hurt my back and couldn't walk to the place like I usually do). There's more. Everything I did and said was blown out of proportion. No one ever told me about all this, though they say they tried to hint. Worst of all, a couple of people stuck up for me and it helped to ruin things between them and the GM (there were other things, no one's perfect, but this didn't help). Meanwhile I'm very frustrated and upset. I was pretty rusty with dealing with people and really nervous. What happened with my old friends really did a number on me. I don't trust people anymore.... and I guess I'm right not to. I mean, am I supposed to talk only when gaming and only about gaming. I'm 31 years old and I don't know how to make friends. :( Ye Gods, but that's sad. Yech, things are really a mess and I'm not sure what I'm doing, but I hope it's ok that I'm venting here. Any advice is welcome on finding a new group or how to be more that just a game group, because I haven't got a clue. [/QUOTE]

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