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Message: <blockquote data-quote="Ankh-Morpork Guard" data-source="post: 1716781" data-attributes="member: 10079">Truthfully, I would have left the US eventually. Probably would have come to this area, too. After living in fairly populated areas, its the kind of change of pace I've wanted. I can't say whether I'll go back or not, but I can say that I doubt I'll let myself just run off again. I came here for a reason...I can't just go back, even after time.Maybe my problem is that I don't think its hopeless. Or rather, I KNOW it isn't. I've known her long enough to know how she acts and what she does. She's had this habit of getting people attached to her. After a month or so, she realizes what she's done, and it ends up really hurting these people. Now, I guess you could say it just took me a few YEARS...but I'll be the stubborn egotist for the moment and say "Its different"...simply because it is. The reason I'm in this house is because he mother and I have actually become good friends(had to considering circumstances), she won't LET me leave here. Its a stable home, and at least that's something I've got. I won't give up though...I've just got to find a way to not think so much. Then I start dwelling on things and it all gets worse.But I can't give up. To do that would be more of a failure than anything for me. I have to keep going...and I can see it in her eyes and the way she speaks, that no matter what she may act like on the outside, she's still the same person. Everything is still there...just...hidden. The last thing I'll do is give up though...especially after all this money and work that's gone into this. I've given up my entire family and any benefits that come with that for an unknown. Well....known, but not as well as I'd expected.I've passed the point of no return years ago. I'm here. I can't go back. It seems like that should drive me on, but when I got here WITH someone...argh. Hopefully getting into College will help busy myself while things just...happen.</blockquote>

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