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Message: <blockquote data-quote="Valkys" data-source="post: 113908" data-attributes="member: 2653">I'm going to kill him. I don't know when or where, but at the first opportunity, he's a dead man. Sirsei is shaking with barely suppressed rage. Rather than speak to Tomas, she exhales slowly and walks out of the Inn, and then heads in the opposite direction as Tomas, without speaking to anyone.Why would anyone swear the three oaths with louts like that walking about? If that's the calibre of the nobility, the Aes Sedai should take charge. This is an internal debate she has had many times. The three oaths seem so pointless to her. Why bother? What exactly were those women thinking when they decided that Aes Sedai must swear them? The Tower survived for so long without the oaths. What had happened?She could leave the Tower. Caemlyn would really be an ideal place to just forget the whole deal. She could return to Arad Doman, or go south to Ebou Dar or Illian. She questioned her resolve once more and thought on her trials in the three arches.This sort of rubbish, nobles looking down on me, yet giving me everything I want so long as I act like a good pet. I was pampered like a prize mare> And all I had to do in return was give over my free choice, subjugate my will to their own. Hardly worth it. This Tomas is no different than that. Was I wrong to threaten him? No. He deserved it. And it isn't a threat if I'm willing to carry it out. Am I willing to do that? She thought about her third trial and shivered, I was one of the new Forsaken. No one could stand in my way. Even Lanfear trembled at my order. Married to Ishmael, wife of the Nae'blis. And even then, she'd had to let her own will and desires come second to those of the Dark One. She'd looked up the word Nae'blis and the meaning scared her. Could that really happen in her lifetime? Could her worst fear and greatest desire come true? She feared that a darkness hid within her breast. For whatever reason, she would burn Tomas, or thought she could. She didn't fear the Dark One. She couldn't be a Darkfriend. And even the Tower was difficult at times, when she had to follow orders. She would never "learn her place" as Tomas had put it, and if he tried to put here there, wherever he thought it was, she would exact her retribution, whatever the cost might be. And then run, if necessary.  He only has to threaten me once. And then I'll have just cause, since I'd be defending myself. Shalimar might even help. What am I thinking? I shouldn't involve her in this. Shame on me for thinking it.</blockquote>

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