Because Damnit! I did not picture an elf for this character! Suboptimal imagination strikes again!
But you are right... I won't linger on that thought too long or I am back to square one!
I think I would still live...maybe...if we play smart! OK if we don't do anything totally stupid...
I may not understand your goal, but you are proficient in any weapon you summon, and I believe the only stricture is that weapon is one-handed.(no PHB at work)