I'll keep you and your family in your thoughts and prayers, DungeonmasterCal.
And I also think your anger isn't as unusual of a reaction as you think; a few years ago, one of my buddies from high school committed suicide by intentionally overdosing on painkillers. While I was saddened at the loss of my friend, I was also angry at him for what his stupid action did to his family, his wife, and his two daughters.