Chapter 133: Hyperspace
It was going to be a long hyperspace jump. Titus had eventually retreated back to the cockpit to make sure things were all doing okay, and had found that the jump was going to be a four hour long trip. At least Alderaan was comfortable. He couldn’t help feeling sorry for the two Alraxians in that small X-Wing. But there wasn’t anything that could be done about it. It was a miracle that they were alive...but he was getting used to situations like that. Despite everything he may have once thought about Akan, Titus really understood the skill that the young man had. It finally made sense to him why the New Republic would allow such a young person in their ranks. In a way, though, it was frightening. Yes, Titus was a warrior through and through. But Titus had a childhood. A normal one by most standards. He had loving parents, and good friends. War had only shown its ugly face by the time Titus was an adult. But Akan...Titus really couldn’t imagine fighting from such a young age, and didn’t want to attempt imagining the effects that would have on one’s psyche.
Titus had moved past his brush with the Dark Side. He knew its dangers, its lures, and what it could do to a person. He’d seen it in himself. And looking at Akan, he could see a danger. To only know war was bad enough, but to hold such strong emotions inside was even worse, especially for someone so strong. But at least Akan seemed to have been holding himself together much better lately. Maybe all of that worrying was baseless now...hopefully. Shrugging off the depressing thoughts, Titus stepped back into the small medical room onboard the Alderaan.
Jen was awake, sitting up and looking somewhat dizzy. She managed a weak smile and leaned back against the wall behind the bed. Titus sat next to her, gently wrapping an arm around her waist, “You doing better?”
She nodded, resting her head on his shoulder and letting out a sigh, “Everyone’s okay?”
“They got out right before we did,” Titus answered quietly.
There was a silence, then a short, very genuine laugh from Jen. After a moment, she silenced herself and asked quietly, “That was pretty stupid of me, wasn’t it?”
Titus couldn’t help a slight grin, patting Jen on the waist, “Yeah, it was.”
“Its not fair,” Jen grumbled, a laugh still in her voice though she was obviously trying to fight it back and sound serious.
“What’s not fair?”
Tilting her head to look at him, she grinned, “Why do the three of you never get shot?”
This time, Titus did laugh, “Special training. Actually, this is all just one big holodrama and we forgot to tell you. We wanted to keep your performance genuine. Apparently, the galaxy enjoys seeing a strong woman who reacts naturally.”
“And that means I have to get shot?” she raised an eyebrow, and poked him gently in the chest, “If I’m the star, shouldn’t you get shot and then I mourn your death? Then, just before the end, you appear, everyone’s happy, and the bad guy dies.”
“Nope, this is the other kind of holodrama,” the grin on Titus’ face grew, “It’s the kind where everyone thinks the star is dead and she comes back stronger than ever.”
“Oh...right...” she trailed off a moment, then mock glared, “Sounds all dramatic and great, but can’t you people use fake blasters? That really hurt.”
“Keeps the illusion of reality,” Titus responded quickly, not missing a beat.
The glare faded, and Jen grumbled, “Not much of an illusion if you ask me,” she leaned up slightly and kissed his cheek, whispering very quietly, “I can’t help but wonder if you’re an expendable cast member. You think I could toss you out the airlock for letting me get shot?”
“That’s a very harsh treatment,” he sat up a little, giving her a worried look. Something in that voice hinted that she might just try it.
There was a pause, and her grin suddenly grew, though her voice sounded slightly devious, “Husbands are supposed to be shields, didn’t you read the terms back on Corellia?”
Before Titus could respond, Jen silenced him with a kiss. He couldn’t help still feeling a little worried, as she had sounded so serious...and probably was. Maybe he did miss something back on Corellia...nah. Hopefully.
* * * *
Akan had attempted sleeping during the trip. It had ended up with him just sitting back in that seat with his eyes closed and mind running in overdrive. Shadow had fallen asleep not long before, and was out in her usual rock-like sleep. Grumbling to himself, Akan attempted, yet again, to shift into a more comfortable position. These seats were truly not designed for beings with tails...sensitive tails. It seemed that no matter how he moved, even with the straps holding him down off, his tail ached slightly from the seat. For some odd reason, the idea of just being human or any tail-less species didn’t cross his mind.
Two hours passed with Akan just going over past events and thinking about pointless things. Then, behind him, there was a grunt, curse, grumble, and a whimper...in that order. It took a few more moments before there was a loud yawn, an odd purring type noise, and then, out of the corner of his vision, he saw arms. After a couple more minutes of this, Shadow finished stretching and mumbled, “‘re we there yet?”
“Halfway,” Akan said quietly, closing his eyes again.
“‘s scrap of metal’s uncomfurful,” mumbled the same, not all awake voice.
Akan couldn’t help a slight smile, but found he moved again to find that elusive comfortable position. He didn’t say anything, and Shadow continued mumbling pointlessly for at least another half hour. It took that long for her to properly wake up from the cat nap, and once coherent, asked through a yawn, “Why aren’t you asleep?”
“Not tired,” he responded flatly.
There was a ‘hmmph’ noise and then he felt the headrest of the seat getting tapped, “You weren’t tired earlier. Adrenaline rush gone. You’re exhausted.”
There was a silence. How could he argue with someone that was right there in his mind? It also meant she knew why he wasn’t asleep. This was a tactic she’d used before. Fine, he’d cooperate, “I don’t want to sleep.”
“That’s a first,” Shadow snapped in that all-knowing voice she used to goad him on to the proper response. It was part of her trying to teach him to stop holding things inside. While that may have seemed ironic, considering she’d been teaching him to use his emotions as strength, some things were more dangerous to everyone when kept inwards.
“You know why,” Akan grumbled back, fighting her at every turn it seemed.
But Shadow held her ground, keeping an icy calm tone to her voice, “Yes, I do. The question is, do you know why?”
There was another pause before Akan sighed, “I don’t want to see those faces again. They didn’t deserve to die.”
“You made a mistake,” Shadow said very calmly, continuing to push him almost too far.
“A mistake that killed innocent people,” he snapped back over his shoulder, “It was more than a mistake. I failed.”
“You can’t always succeed.”
“I should!” Akan yelled, back at her. That got a smile out of her, though he couldn’t see it. It hadn’t taken as long as she had expected for him to start actually talking. His voice calmed, and he spoke more quietly, “I should...when lives are at stake.”
“And yet you wield that lightsaber,” Shadow said, sitting back slightly and pushing even more, “Are you saying its alright to kill those that don’t agree with you, but wrong to kill those that are out for your life?”
“I didn’t! I didn’t say that!”
“You implied it,” sounded the eerily calm voice again, finally not pushing any farther and satisfied with the current position.
Akan was silent for a moment, obviously thinking about it, “I just reacted...I don’t know what happened. I didn’t mean for things to go so far.”
“And yet they did,” Shadow renewed her assault, still speaking in that calm voice, “Why?”
“I thought they...I saw...” he trailed off, trying to put emotions into words, “I saw the gunners that killed her. I knew they weren’t the same...but they were in the same place...and I...I don’t know.”
“You do,” this time, Shadow actually sounded a bit sympathetic, which was odd and slightly worrying, “You’ve questioned our people many times...our ways that I’ve taught you. The one that you always fight against is why the Tam-Day-U fight like we do.”
Akan attempted to look over his shoulder, surprised by the change in tone, “Emotionless killers. No nothing. No lives of your own.”
“And yet, we succeed,” Shadow said in a serious tone, “We succeed because there are no emotions to get in the way. We kill because we have to. Be it a mission or simply for our survival. It is our job. It is why we exist.”
“Its slavery!” Akan snapped suddenly, “Your own people treat you like dirt! You’ve said it yourself.”
Shadow didn’t miss a beat, “It is our way. We are peaceful. The Tam-Day-U are a disgrace to the Empire.”
Akan sighed. If that wasn’t a pre-programmed response, then he didn’t know what was. Yes, Shadow did have a good point when it came to putting one’s emotions aside, but there was still something naturally wrong about it. Alraxians were even more emotionally based creatures than humans were. To completely cut that off seemed impossible to Akan. Shadow had been away long enough that she had developed a very individual personality, but there were still the old traces of the emotionless killer in there. Usually in that grin that worried everyone.
They didn’t speak for the rest of the trip. Shadow fell asleep again after a while, but awoke just minutes before they reached the destination. Akan found it was amazingly refreshing to pull the hyperspace lever, and even more so to watch the stars return to normal, seeing a soft orange one not too far away. Anoat. Not the prettiest system in the galaxy, but remote. The second that the X-Wing exited hyperspace, both Shadow and Akan were mentally assaulted with a familiar voice. [You’re late!! Thought you were s’posed to be right behind me! What took you so long?! You’re never late! I was bored! And lonely...why were you late?!]
Both Alraxians grinned. Poor Loki. It was Shadow who responded o the distant Kanyak, completely ignoring what he’d said. [Do you think you could reconfigure your interior to fit this ship inside, Loki?]
An odd question in Akan’s opinion, but then again, he still didn’t completely understand how Kanyak’s worked. Loki’s ‘voice’ responded a second later, as if waiting on that question. [Already done! That’s what I did while waiting! Opening the hangar! Don’t take long! You’re late enough and I’m booooored!]
Shadow laughed quietly then said to Akan, “You heard him, go!”
Ignoring the tap on the back of his head, Akan pulled the X-Wing around to the closing Kanyak and found the open hangar. It was small, but just large enough for the X-Wing to fit...hopefully. Akan made sure to slow down the starfighter considerably just in case, not liking how tight the space was on the two sides. As he was finally setting down and the hangar door closed like an iris behind, the comm clicked and Titus’ voice sounded, “Jen says she owes you two a good beating for letting her get shot.”
“What?” Shadow tilted her head in that usual confused fashion. Of course, Akan understood the joke and grinned.
“Forget it, Shadow,” Jen’s voice cut in, sounding tired but happy. The starfighter began powering down as Jen continued speaking, “Where to from here?”
“Rest,” Shadow said simply, and Akan couldn’t help but give her a look. She was obsessed with sleeping lately...well, not lately. Always. Sleep, eat, hunt. That was the extent of Shadow’s knowledge. But just before the comm system cut out, she added, “After that, I’m going to Coruscant. Where you three go is up to you.”
They all knew that the last part was directed at Akan more than anyone.
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Okay, okay, its kind of short. Shoot me. Tommorrow will hopefully be longer. Not as much time to write today as I'm (finally) going back home tommorrow. Need to pack stuff.))