Majoru Oakheart said:
I'm not really all that unhappy.
Of course you are. You just pretend you're not, so it doesn't break you. When you're in the subway and people don't sit next to you, or watch you pass in a disapproving stare, then you pretend not to notice and really concentrate on the videogames you're going to play. It's easy, but it's not helpful.
I'm a bit complacent. Sometimes the fact that almost nothing has changed in my life for the good in a couple of years gets to me, and I do believe that change is on the horizon for me. Whether it happens to me by accident or I force the change has yet to be seen, but do not believe you have not motivated me, you have.
"Change is on the horizon"? What do you think will happen? A gym coach accidentally knocks on your door and makes you excercise? Change is now, or change is not. But change is nowhere except inside of you.
I'm not as overweight or in dire need of change, IMHO as everyone on the board believes I am from my post. I agree with what you say, and plan on making changes of some type for sure. I think you overexaggerate slightly. But, thank you for replying. I really do appreciate your comments.
You really want just to get off easy, right? You're betraying yourself here. You "plan on making changes of some type for sure"? You know how often I said the exact same thing, while inherently knowing it was a lie? That's not motivation. Motivation would be to log off ENWorld, go outside and walk for a mile or two. Take one of your books, sit down whenever or at a café, and read if you want. Or plug your i-Pod in. But do something. Don't talk of doing something, do it.
I have friends who I care about and game with regularly. I had a lot of fun joking around with my coworkers last night. Talked to the woman again, if only briefly since there was too much work to do. I am already planning going out for coffee with my best friend on Thursday and hope to get some reading done today. Looking forward to playing my new character in the Friday D&D game, a Wood Elf Barbarian/Druid. Have some prep work to do for my Return to the Temple of Elemental Evil game on Saturday.
Have fun!
Everyone in this thread has made it sound like I am horribly different than all of you. I'm not. But as long as everyone has the opinion that I'm too full of myself, I doubt they'll ever find that out.
Oh, that's precious. You dismiss our posts in one easy swipe. "Yeah, let them say what they want, they don't know me." Have you even read what people here wrote? You are no different than any of us. Funsagite wrote about his problems, several others did, too. What I'm telling you is what I would tell myself two years ago.
You're not special. You're no more intelligent, or educated, or emotionally mature / vulnerable than 90% of us. We recognize you. Doesn't matter what shirt you wear. And that is actually meant positively.
I've appreciated all of it, even if a lot of it was excessively mean, but I think I invited that.
Well, I know I intended my words to pierce your shell. The fact that it makes you feel uncomfortable enough to try and end this discussion shows me I succeeded. But while our comments may have been mean, they were not mean-spirited. We just don't want you to become the Simpson's comic book guy.
But I'll end this here, as well. I don't think there's much we can do, anyway, and the little what was possible, we did. It's up to you now.
Do or don't.