Ahhh phuzzle...date came and went it was a good time but my stupid head has inserted unwelcome thoughts of doubt GRRrrr

not sure if writing it down cements them but I dunno.
I was letting her into my heart or at least thinking I was and then the shes not for you dump her came into my head phuz, phuz, phuzzle!
And now I just thought of her face and it seems alright again.
Pop psycologing myself, When I was with my first girlfriend I knew I wasn't in love with her when I was still going out with her and I had told her I'd loved her a few times (not meaning it, like you should) then I broke up with her when she had gone on holiday to Canada by email, this kind of hurt her and it has taken until last year for her to speak to me normally again (so around 5 years) I guess I just don't want to hurt any women.
Well I like her and my mind's attempts at self sabotage will not be triumphant!
EDIT: everything seems to be fine again in mind and I'm smiling like a loon which I invariably am.
I highly recommend Slumdog Millionaire, a brilliant film deserves the accolades it's getting.
Oh yeah Relique, have a *hug* from me I've only done the long distance thing before and to have your limited time together shared with someone else as well, I find kinda unbelievable.
These things are never easy, doesn't matter who finishes it, have a beer/tipple of your choice for me.