rythm_rampage said:
A problem I have (I guess) is that when I don't get feedback I think that the session was bad and when a session was bad I prepare even less and then I enter a vicious circle. My players usually say that the session was "ok" when I state that it sucked in my opinion but nobody ever complains.
I don't see how it's a "problem" to not be sure what to think given that you're not getting any feedback from your players. If all you're getting is "ok", what the heck else are you supposed to think? That everything was awesome?
You started off this thread talking about a problem you were having, and it seemed pretty clear to me that it's not all on your shoulders. Yet, as the thread has progressed, you've been backpedaling, reasserting over and over again that it's a problem with you, and everything is really okay, and you'll just go biking and the game will sort itself out.
Then you post some actual feedback from a player who has bothered to talk to you and... guess what? "It's your fault."
You also used the phrase "we never really get a break". Break? Isn't gaming a "break"? You're making it sound like hard work.
Maybe it's just me, but it sounds like your group is just plain bored with gaming right now. Regardless of your physical health, if you were excited about gaming, you'd be happy and prep would be enjoyable. If your players were excited about gaming, they'd be glad to do whatever they could to help you run a great game, or they'd be happy to let you take a break from GM'ing and run games themselves.
Stop blaming yourself. If gaming is too tiring and your players can't muster anything more than "ok" at the games being played, you need to just stop. No GM technique or advice is going to fix that. Neither is hoping really hard that "next time is going to be great". If the situation doesn't change, you're gonna see the same things happen over and over.
Gaming should not feel like work. Prep should not feel like something you have to force yourself to do. You shouldn't have to pull teeth to get player feedback. If you feel like you "never get a break", TAKE ONE. Step away from the table and pursue some other hobby for a while. When you're ready to game again, you'll find yourself scribbling adventure ideas like a madman and bouncing with excitement as you play.
And consider the possibility that you simply don't like the work involved with being a GM. It's okay. Sit on the other side of the screen for a while.
I would recommend posting a rundown of your latest session in the Actual Play forums over at
http://www.indie-rpgs.com. You'll get great feedback.