Hi, Eric!
Here's a funny thing: when I heard about the Afternoon Adventures program from WotC (librarians can apply and get some free goodies to organize playing groups in libraries) I immediately thought of you (and Buttercup and the rest of the ENWorld Librarian League).
Don't feel bad about bailing out when you needed. If you needed it, then it was the right way to go.
If you don't feel like losing all contact with fantasy, try some D&D Minis games (look at it like a chess of sorts), maybe play if the opportunity presents itself.
Taoism teaches that it is better to conserve your energy and go with the flow, so when the perfect opportunity presents itself, you'll have all of your energy to invest into that opportunity. It's like you're in a river. If you keep flailing about, you'll be too tired to reach that perfect tree branch that will let you pull yourself out.
Not that I'm a Taoist. I just played one...
So go with the flow. If that takes you further away from RPGs, go on and enjoy everything else. If the flow someday brings you back to the hobby, it will welcome you with arms wide open, as befits the Legendary Loremaster.
Who knows? One day, if you have a kid, you might get the itchy yearning of introducing him to this crazy game, so you'll blow the dust away from those old, yellowed tomes, shoo away the spiders and start the tale of the lil' d20 that could...
