[OT] To All Who Know Me ... Sad News

[Draco Paladin]

I've been a lurker here for months, but things like these shake me out of my silence.

I wrote this thing a while back. I was thinking of making a journey-poem from Taladas taught by the witches of the mystery cult of Mislaxa, who is better known in Ansalon as the Blue Lady Mishakal.

It's a pantoum, with certain lines from each stanzas, making it into the next. The last stanza loops back into the first, so it's a continuous hymn to the Goddess, and theoretically, you can keep reciting the prayer continuously throughout a journey, and end it when you've reached safety and home.

I hope it cheers you up somewhat, and aids your difficult journey. You have my deepest sympathies. And I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.

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I will not be afraid of the night all around me,
for you are my light and I know you are near.
I will not be afraid when my foes all surround me,
for you are my strength and my freedom from fear.

For you are my light and I know you are near,
this one thing I ask, and this one thing I pray—
for you are my strength and my freedom from fear—
To gaze at your loveliness all of my days

This one thing I ask, and this one thing I pray,
I ask nothing else, nothing less, nothing more
Than to gaze at your loveliness all of my days,
and dwell in your home, there to stay evermore.

I ask nothing else, nothing less, nothing more,
Your faithfulness fills and refreshes my soul,
I will dwell in your home, there to stay evermore,
Your mercy brings peace, and your love makes me whole.

Your faithfulness fills and refreshes my soul,
I will not be afraid of the night all around me,
Your mercy brings peace, and your love makes me whole
I will not be afraid when my foes all surround me.

 

[Angelsboi]

You know, I dont know if it was you, this thread or my T Cell count thread but someone mentioned Mishakel's Blessings on me and I was amazed.

The only reason I ever read Draglonlance was originally for Goldmoon. She was my favorite charater and to this day she is the only reason I play a cleric.

Draco Knight, thank you very much. Id like to place this in my livejournal if I may. Do I have your permission?

 

[krunchyfrogg]

Good luck, AB.

 

[billd91]

Man, 23 is too young to have this kind of heavy thing laid on you. You have my sympathies and my best wishes.

As for advice, you've got to do whatever it takes to keep your body strong and healthy to fight off opportunistic infections even if it means getting on the bad side of the DEA and short-sighted public policy.

Better luck to you and yours.

 

[Ran]

Man I am 22, almost 23, and you know what? Every time I imagine this I cry, for we pay prices tht are too high for oneself...

Don't get down, we can fight better when we are watching straight ahead, after all, future is still to come...

 

[Draco Paladin]

You know, I dont know if it was you, this thread or my T Cell count thread but someone mentioned Mishakel's Blessings on me and I was amazed.

The only reason I ever read Draglonlance was originally for Goldmoon. She was my favorite charater and to this day she is the only reason I play a cleric.

Draco Knight, thank you very much. Id like to place this in my livejournal if I may. Do I have your permission?

You have my permission. In fact, I'd be honored.

Be well. Light, life, and love be with you always.

 

[Angelsboi]

Draco, i posted an update.

Feel free to look and you can respond as well if you click post a comment and post as Anonomous

 

[Illuminae]

Well, you are alive.

I´ll try to translate something that comes to mind in portuguese, a saying I always recite:

"It has not finished until it is over"

This is for moments you might feel fear of anything that might happen from now on.

The battle is not lost until it is over.

I have an uncle whos HIV positive and also gay. If I remember correctly, he has been living with the virus for at least 10 years.

He is alive, well and working as we are.

He told me once he knew he needed to make a decision, to adapt. To have discipline, to take care of himself, to want to live. He wouldnt let a frigging small piece o sheet take his life in any way.

If you want to contact him to talk, hear more about his experience, whatever, email me or let me know in this thread. I dont know how good his english is, but I wouldnt have any problems providing any help needed.

Best for you,

Mauricio

 

[BOZ]

Man I am 22, almost 23, and you know what? Every time I imagine this I cry, for we pay prices tht are too high for oneself...

if this were a perfect world, we could all do whatever we want, whenever we want, and nothing bad would ever happen to anyone because of it. crying about it won't change that fact...

it's all the fun stuff that really kills you in the end.

still, having love in your heart and in your life makes living your life, no matter how hard it may be, all the much better - which i think is what we are all wishing AB here.

 

[Angelsboi]

Yes, the fun stuff can kill you. Im living proof.

Beefcake!