I am sorry to hear about your news, Angelsboi. I haven't really talked to you on the website, but I've read many of your posts and really appreciated that you were willing to be so open about yourself and kind of clear the air for other gay people to be realize they could be comfortable in this online community at ENWorld. Take care of yourself and follow a strict regimen on whatever meds and other medical advice you get from your doctor. I have a friend who was diagnosed HIV positive almost twenty years ago and had full blown AIDS by 1994 and was near death in the hospital ten years ago, but then he started on the new meds available and made such a great recovery. He has followed his treatment with great discipline. For ten years now he has stayed very healthy and has lived a very happy and rewarding life. If anything, he seems more alive and healthy than ever, perhaps because he doesn't take life or health for granted as most of us tend to do from time to time. The two of us just hiked a mountain out west this week, and he is stronger and healthier than most of the HIV negative folks around him, including me.
I'm sure this is a scary time for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Be well.