Shards of Memory--Act I: The Boundless Void

[unleashed]

Zaeryn T'Erilan, Male Altanian Arcanist

*Doing pretty much as Allure asks, Zaeryn does peek at her from almost closed eyes as he reclines in the chair, hoping to catch any strange behaviour.*

“Well, a sense of loss and guilt of course, but I’m mostly feeling dazed by the whole incident. I guess my penchant for solving puzzles and mysteries may have leapt to the fore with what’s happened,” Zaeryn concedes, his voice cracking a little as he continues, “Though I don’t know why I’d want Valyssa to be less real... a guise worn by others... as it wouldn’t make her loss any less real... it’d just be a different way for her to be taken from me... possibly an even more unsettling way all things considered...”

 

[Rystil Arden]

"Okay, let's explore that further. What makes you feel dazed? Do you think you may be dazed because you haven't been able to unravel your emotions and get them off your chest?"

 

[unleashed]

Zaeryn T'Erilan, Male Altanian Arcanist

“I don’t know. I mean I grieved for quite a while before falling asleep, the night Valyssa... died... not that I slept well, as my dreams were tormented with visions of Valyssa falling to the deck, her lifeless eyes staring accusingly at me...”

 

[Rystil Arden]

"Dreams can sometimes be a call from out unconscious, trying to surface our inner feelings. How did that make you feel?"

 

[unleashed]

Zaeryn T'Erilan, Male Altanian Arcanist

“Distressed, guilt-ridden, and helpless, as I relived the events that left her dead at my feet... knowing I had no magic to defend her with, after having piloted the ship.”

 

[Rystil Arden]

"I see...You say you felt guilty. When people feel guilty, it is natural to feel frightened and sad. They want to look for something else to blame so that they don't have to feel guilty. Another way to relieve guilt is to just take a steady view of the situation and tell yourself 'It's not my fault'. It's not your fault, Zaeryn. Just relax, and take a deep breath........It's not your fault. How are you feeling?"

 

[Festy_Dog]

Diedrik emerged onto the deck to get a grasp of the current situation. Once he knows what needs to be done and who on deck is able to help he starts trying to get the ship to run as efficiently as possible and minimise the problems caused by the severe loss of crew members.

 

[unleashed]

Zaeryn T'Erilan, Male Altanian Arcanist

"I see...You say you felt guilty. When people feel guilty, it is natural to feel frightened and sad. They want to look for something else to blame so that they don't have to feel guilty. Another way to relieve guilt is to just take a steady view of the situation and tell yourself 'It's not my fault'. It's not your fault, Zaeryn. Just relax, and take a deep breath........It's not your fault. How are you feeling?"

“Yes, I know it’s not my fault, and I thank you for saying so... though I’d already taken that step on my own before coming to you the first time. So that doesn’t really explain why I’d come to the conclusion that Valyssa was a guise worn first by you and then your sister...”

 

[Rystil Arden]

"Just because our conscious rational mind tells us one thing, it does not mean we are at peace in our unconscious. In fact, many psychological maladies stem from the unconscious. Don't try to over-rationalise...just breathe. That's it. Breathe. And just let your mind wander, follow my voice. Let's try some free association. What is the first word that comes to your mind when I say: 'Valyssa'."

 

[unleashed]

Zaeryn T'Erilan, Male Altanian Arcanist

*Zaeryn smiles as he does as Allure asks.*

“Love.”