Ankh-Morpork Guard
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Chapter 185: Knew All Along...
They were silent as Shadow led the way back to Hermes, still carrying Kyren without much trouble. When they made it back into the dark hangar, Hermes was still there, and Akan mentioned quietly, “He’s probably ready to go. He and I...um...talked some. I did most of the talking, actually.”
“Yes...” Shadow said, nodding and leading the way over to the ship, “Loki always said that he was very good at observing and...ah...blackmail.”
“So I’ve heard,” Akan grumbled as they stepped up the access ramp that was still down. They both greeted Hermes, who seemed rather nervous when compared to his excitement from before they’d arrived. Shadow placed Kyren in the tiny, single quarters behind the cockpit before stepping back into the cockpit and having a seat in the pilot’s chair. Akan plopped down in his usual spot in the co-pilot’s seat just as Shadow took control and brought Hermes out of the near invisible hangar and angled him back towards Alraxia. Once the course was plotted, Hermes took control and had them rocketing through the emptiness of space towards home.
And then Akan decided it was time to bring up the important question, “So...Shadow...what happened to our link?”
Shadow bit her lip and looked down at one of the consoles before sighing slightly, “I’m not sure. I...I did some of it, but not this much. I believe someone has tampered with it.”
“That doesn’t make sense,” Akan commented, “Isn’t it a link between you and me because of the whole giving me a body thing? How can that be taken away or altered or whatever?”
“There are...rituals,” Shadow admitted somewhat weakly, “I will look into it when we get back. Things will be much...much different. I am free now. The guards will likely still be as nervous as always but they’ll have to tolerate me for once. I also need to...to do a few other things,” she grinned weakly and looked over to Akan, “I haven’t exactly been the best sister in the galaxy for Alyx.”
Akan nodded, deciding that none of that was really bad. But still, there was a reason they were here, and so that brought up his next question, “What’s going to happen when we get back? Are we going to just sit around more or are we actually going to get to business?”
Shadow sighed and shrugged weakly, “There’s been no new information in the last couple of days. The border is huge and we can’t just go charging off into Mrrakesh space. They’re waiting for something, and we’re going to have to wait, too.”
“What are they waiting for?” Akan asked the next obvious question. But this went unanswered. Shadow just hung her head and looked the other way. That simply confirmed that there was a lot more going on that he wasn’t privy to. Which was becoming annoying, “Shadow, I’ve about had it with this. Its about time you stopped hiding things from me and tell me what’s really going on. I keep getting...told things and winked and such and it doesn’t make any sense. When I ask, everyone always laughs and says you know.”
Turning back to look at him, Shadow blinked with a somewhat blank look on her face, “I um...I’ve been truthful with you. I’ve told you everything.”
What had they told him?! Maybe they...no. No, she’d told him everything. Definitely everything. There wasn’t anything else. She was absolutely sure of it, though for some reason Marix was being quiet. It was that suspicious form of quiet where it was obvious she knew something but was enjoying watching the chaos far too much. And then Akan cut in again, grumbling, “Just ask Hermes.”
She did. She regretted it. In just a few moments, she’d gone from her usual tanned skin tone to a very bright shade of pink. Shadow looked to Akan again, coughed, and mumbled something that wasn’t a word in any language. After realizing this, she bit her lip and then tried again, “Yes...that...well...um...at the time. I mean...there wasn’t time. You were dying and...and there wasn’t a choice...so at the time...I didn’t...I mean...um...I couldn’t think of anything else...”
The way her voice had fallen to a very heated whisper only got her skin to turn a brighter shade of pink. At the same time, Akan could swear she was actually giving off heat. Turning a little red himself, but not so much as she had, he nodded, “I-I understand. I just thought...you know, with everything they said that...that you knew. I’m...I’m sorry...”
Silence. A long one. One that lasted long enough for Shadow to see Alraxian slowly growing in the viewport in front of them. Very slowly, and very calmly, she forced the next words out, “I did know.”
Shadow then coughed again. Akan stared blankly at her. She...she knew?! The whole time, she’d known that he was...and they were...and...she knew?! It’d been nearly a year, probably more even, and the entire time...she knew!! And she didn’t tell him! He opened his mouth, but no words came out. She knew...did that mean she...? No. No. It was the only choice. She just made a decision. But if she knew...then maybe....no! It was just covering a mistake! Nothing more! But she knew...
Inside Shadow’s mind, a discussion had erupted. Or rather, been forced from one side and avoided by the other. It was Marix, of course, who had started it. Its quite rude to ignore him after saying something like that.
The only response that Shadow gave was a mental grumbling of non-words. This went on for a while, and of course, Marix was making perfect sense of it. It wasn’t as if the words really mattered anyway. They were all just thoughts, and as their minds were the same, they were all shared thoughts. The ‘speaking’ of it was all just a way of keeping the ‘both’ of them from going more insane than they already were.
Finally, Marix cut into Shadow’s stream of nothings. By the way, he was a good choice.
Shut. Up. Shadow’s ability to find words had miraculously returned in a second.
Marix just ‘smiled’ at Shadow. We cannot continue on like this for much longer. You know as well as I do that we must be Marix and not Marix and Shadow.
Shadow quickly went right back to the non-words. Marix found it very interesting how it seemed that Shadow continued to fall back to Akan with each of those. She obviously knew about it, but it seemed to be conveniently ignored. Again, Marix cut into Shadow’s wordless thoughts. Its because of the emotions isn’t it? They are...confusing. You will get used to them.
This time, there was no response. It wasn’t a problem. It was probably because Alraxian was now filling the viewport. She smiled openly again as they moved through the atmosphere. Home...really home this time. Home and free. There were so many things she needed to make up for. And then, and the end of it all, was Ket and Nine. It really was amazing how the two of them had become a footnote to her family.
They were silent as Shadow led the way back to Hermes, still carrying Kyren without much trouble. When they made it back into the dark hangar, Hermes was still there, and Akan mentioned quietly, “He’s probably ready to go. He and I...um...talked some. I did most of the talking, actually.”
“Yes...” Shadow said, nodding and leading the way over to the ship, “Loki always said that he was very good at observing and...ah...blackmail.”
“So I’ve heard,” Akan grumbled as they stepped up the access ramp that was still down. They both greeted Hermes, who seemed rather nervous when compared to his excitement from before they’d arrived. Shadow placed Kyren in the tiny, single quarters behind the cockpit before stepping back into the cockpit and having a seat in the pilot’s chair. Akan plopped down in his usual spot in the co-pilot’s seat just as Shadow took control and brought Hermes out of the near invisible hangar and angled him back towards Alraxia. Once the course was plotted, Hermes took control and had them rocketing through the emptiness of space towards home.
And then Akan decided it was time to bring up the important question, “So...Shadow...what happened to our link?”
Shadow bit her lip and looked down at one of the consoles before sighing slightly, “I’m not sure. I...I did some of it, but not this much. I believe someone has tampered with it.”
“That doesn’t make sense,” Akan commented, “Isn’t it a link between you and me because of the whole giving me a body thing? How can that be taken away or altered or whatever?”
“There are...rituals,” Shadow admitted somewhat weakly, “I will look into it when we get back. Things will be much...much different. I am free now. The guards will likely still be as nervous as always but they’ll have to tolerate me for once. I also need to...to do a few other things,” she grinned weakly and looked over to Akan, “I haven’t exactly been the best sister in the galaxy for Alyx.”
Akan nodded, deciding that none of that was really bad. But still, there was a reason they were here, and so that brought up his next question, “What’s going to happen when we get back? Are we going to just sit around more or are we actually going to get to business?”
Shadow sighed and shrugged weakly, “There’s been no new information in the last couple of days. The border is huge and we can’t just go charging off into Mrrakesh space. They’re waiting for something, and we’re going to have to wait, too.”
“What are they waiting for?” Akan asked the next obvious question. But this went unanswered. Shadow just hung her head and looked the other way. That simply confirmed that there was a lot more going on that he wasn’t privy to. Which was becoming annoying, “Shadow, I’ve about had it with this. Its about time you stopped hiding things from me and tell me what’s really going on. I keep getting...told things and winked and such and it doesn’t make any sense. When I ask, everyone always laughs and says you know.”
Turning back to look at him, Shadow blinked with a somewhat blank look on her face, “I um...I’ve been truthful with you. I’ve told you everything.”
What had they told him?! Maybe they...no. No, she’d told him everything. Definitely everything. There wasn’t anything else. She was absolutely sure of it, though for some reason Marix was being quiet. It was that suspicious form of quiet where it was obvious she knew something but was enjoying watching the chaos far too much. And then Akan cut in again, grumbling, “Just ask Hermes.”
She did. She regretted it. In just a few moments, she’d gone from her usual tanned skin tone to a very bright shade of pink. Shadow looked to Akan again, coughed, and mumbled something that wasn’t a word in any language. After realizing this, she bit her lip and then tried again, “Yes...that...well...um...at the time. I mean...there wasn’t time. You were dying and...and there wasn’t a choice...so at the time...I didn’t...I mean...um...I couldn’t think of anything else...”
The way her voice had fallen to a very heated whisper only got her skin to turn a brighter shade of pink. At the same time, Akan could swear she was actually giving off heat. Turning a little red himself, but not so much as she had, he nodded, “I-I understand. I just thought...you know, with everything they said that...that you knew. I’m...I’m sorry...”
Silence. A long one. One that lasted long enough for Shadow to see Alraxian slowly growing in the viewport in front of them. Very slowly, and very calmly, she forced the next words out, “I did know.”
Shadow then coughed again. Akan stared blankly at her. She...she knew?! The whole time, she’d known that he was...and they were...and...she knew?! It’d been nearly a year, probably more even, and the entire time...she knew!! And she didn’t tell him! He opened his mouth, but no words came out. She knew...did that mean she...? No. No. It was the only choice. She just made a decision. But if she knew...then maybe....no! It was just covering a mistake! Nothing more! But she knew...
Inside Shadow’s mind, a discussion had erupted. Or rather, been forced from one side and avoided by the other. It was Marix, of course, who had started it. Its quite rude to ignore him after saying something like that.
The only response that Shadow gave was a mental grumbling of non-words. This went on for a while, and of course, Marix was making perfect sense of it. It wasn’t as if the words really mattered anyway. They were all just thoughts, and as their minds were the same, they were all shared thoughts. The ‘speaking’ of it was all just a way of keeping the ‘both’ of them from going more insane than they already were.
Finally, Marix cut into Shadow’s stream of nothings. By the way, he was a good choice.
Shut. Up. Shadow’s ability to find words had miraculously returned in a second.
Marix just ‘smiled’ at Shadow. We cannot continue on like this for much longer. You know as well as I do that we must be Marix and not Marix and Shadow.
Shadow quickly went right back to the non-words. Marix found it very interesting how it seemed that Shadow continued to fall back to Akan with each of those. She obviously knew about it, but it seemed to be conveniently ignored. Again, Marix cut into Shadow’s wordless thoughts. Its because of the emotions isn’t it? They are...confusing. You will get used to them.
This time, there was no response. It wasn’t a problem. It was probably because Alraxian was now filling the viewport. She smiled openly again as they moved through the atmosphere. Home...really home this time. Home and free. There were so many things she needed to make up for. And then, and the end of it all, was Ket and Nine. It really was amazing how the two of them had become a footnote to her family.