Chapter 210: Friends and...More?
Shadow had stopped moving. In fact, she’d near frozen, a look of confusion and shock on her face. Though her eyes were looking up in Jyren’s general direction, it was fairly obvious no one was currently in...or at least, that whoever was there was busy trying to sort things out. Which was, of course, very true. While she had a heated and confused mental argument with the small part of her that was still distinctly Marix, somehow she stuttered out a series of words that were almost a sentence, “You...you uh...you what...?”
If Jyren said anything, she didn’t hear it. The link sure wasn’t helping at the moment, either. And neither was Marix. In fact, Shadow wasn’t being helpful to herself, either. While her mind was an insane mess of a thousand different thoughts and ideas that all, in the end, led to the same thing in a roundabout insane way, Shadow somehow noticed that Jyren was standing there looking...a bit like he’d done something wrong.
The expression written across his features was something she could only compare to what Tobias looked like when he knew he was pushing his luck. It was most used during the flurries of ‘why’s. But that was not something one usually saw on Jyren’s face. And though Shadow continued to stand there and stare in confusion, Marix took hold with what needed to be done. Shocking Shadow, she found herself leaning forward(...and up slightly, but that was dutifully ignored) and gently resting her cheek against his.
Quietly, to make sure that no one else around them(who had stopped to stare, but this, too, was ignored) could hear, she whispered, “I...I...I love you...too...”
By the time the words were out, she was already yelling at Marix for taking of advantage of the situation and doing something stupid. What was she saying?! This wasn’t right! He really was out of his tree! She was too! They all were!...so what was the problem? Did that really make things bad? If they crazy, why not be crazy together? What did THAT mean?!
Well...they were stuck together for life. And despite everything, they did get along fairly well...and he was...somehow, that thought faded away. What appeared in its place was a simple question. Wasn’t it too late? She’d already said...said...that...so what good was trying to convince herself otherwise when it really was too late to convince anyone? The question stopped all thought processes, as there was only one answer to that. There wasn’t any point in trying to convince herself otherwise anymore.
And then she realized he’d said something. Blinking and jumping slightly as she was rocketed back into reality, Shadow asked quickly, and in a slightly higher pitched voice than usual, “What was that?”
“Ah...um...they’re all staring at us again,” Jyren mumbled into her ear, which happened to be almost exactly at his mouth, since she’d stopped leaning up a moment earlier. Her ear twitched and flattened for a moment before her eyes darted back and forth. They were all staring. Intently. With grins.
“Come on,” Shadow’s hand on his shoulder slid down to his arm, and she quickly turned to literally drag him out of the center and away from all the attention. Surprisingly enough, it worked. While some still stared, many just went back to dancing or talking or whatever they were doing before. Quickly and somewhat roughly, Shadow dragged Jyren out of the main crowd. When they were out of the largest portion of it, she quickly looked both ways for a place where everyone couldn’t stare. Why, she didn’t know. But the link and her thought both confirmed it was a good idea at this point.
Her eyes locked on the window at the far side of the huge, domed room. With a quick glance to Jyren, who nodded at the mutual thought passing through the link, they both darted for the window. There was a series of doors lower down when they got there, and they exited the interior to find a large, pearly white balcony. Most notable, however, was that it was empty.
Jyren let out a sigh of relief as the collective sounds of all the talking inside were drowned out by the closing door. Shadow did the same, but shivered slightly at the cold as she walked over and leaned out across the railing to look over the huge city.
For a moment, Jyren stood back and stared. Then, when she caught onto this through the link and she managed a mild glare over her shoulder at him, he mumbled an incoherent excuse and wandered over to stand next to her. Neither of them said anything, though. Neither of them knew what to say. So, they simply looked out over the city and the star dotted night sky above. Or at least, that was what Jyren was telling himself.
More so than not, he found himself glancing down to the side to look at Shadow. She was doing a good job at not doing the same, but every so often, he’d catch her eyes moving and she would panic. The panic was only noticeable through seeing her tail twitch and the short burst of insanity through the link before it faded into the nor normal confusion.
One thing he did notice, though, was that she was still shivering. And after a moment of a short, one sided argument with himself, Jyren decided to try something. Very carefully, and very slowly, he reached over to put an arm around Shadow. When his hand touched her shoulder, however she jumped, made a surprised squeak, and took a large step out of the way. Honestly, it had been a reflex caused out of surprise more than anything else. Carefully, Shadow looked over to see the same lost expression as before on Jyren’s face, and she knew he was wondering why he’d done the wrong thing.
She heard him sigh before Jyren turned to look back over the city. There was another internal argument with Marix before Shadow was almost literally pushed to step back over again. Somewhat cautiously, she also reached over to rest an arm around his waist. It got nearly the same reaction out of him, but when he realized that, a grin appeared on his face. He tried again to bring an arm around her, but this time she didn’t jump away, and instead stood there at least a little tense. A little being a complete lie, of course. She was tense enough to probably jump out of her skin if he moved again.
A few more silent minutes passed. Jyren was surprised, though, when he heard Shadow’s voice very quietly break the silence and ask, “So...what happens now?”
Glancing down to her(not that he hadn’t already been, of course), Jyren managed a very slight shrug, “I um...I don’t know...is anything supposed to?”
Shadow thought on this for a few moments. It was a good question. But she still didn’t have an answer to it, and so shrugged just as he had, “I don’t know, either...I mean...there has to be something different between being friends and...and...”
Though she trailed off into silence, Jyren nodded slightly, “I think there is...”
“What is it?” she asked, looking up and searching his eyes for the answer, as the link was still useless. It was a genuine question. She really wanted to understand all of this insanity. Of course, it didn’t occur to her that it might not be something that simple.
Biting his lip, Jyren tried to think, and then reached up to tap his forehead, “You feel that right...?”
After realizing that he meant the link and not tapping on his skull, Shadow nodded slowly.
“I think...I think that’s it...”
Shadow thought about it. Was that what all that insanity was? All that stuff that just didn’t make sense? That was the difference? Maybe...well, why not? But she couldn’t figure out anything else to say, and so they fell into silence again. This one didn’t last nearly as long, though, and it was Jyren that broke it this time.
“You want to go back inside...?” he asked very slowly, “You’re um...shivering still...”
A quick glance behind them and then Shadow looked back and shook her head, “I’ll be alright...you should be glad you get to wear so much, though. I still don’t understand why I can’t have sleeves or anything close...”
Jyren couldn’t help glancing over her again when she said that, and mumbled lamely, “You look...good...”
She blinked, a little surprised, but somehow managed to only go slightly red, “Thank you...” a pause, then she grinned and the red faded again, “You know we’re never going to live this down, don’t you?”
That got a short laugh out of Jyren and he nodded, “It um...could be worse, right?”
“You’ve seen my family,” she said, nodding back behind them, “If it could get worse than them, I’d be amazed.”
Jyren nodded again with a grin, but noticed she was still shivering and, for some reason, latched onto that for a third time. Or at least, he tried to. But just as he was about to say something about it again, his stomach growled...loudly. That got a large grin on Shadow’s face and she nudged him slightly, “You could have just said you were hungry, you know.”
He mumbled something that probably wasn’t a sentence and went a slight red colour. Still grinning, she poked his chest again and motioned back behind them, “Fine, come on...we can get some food and then escape to our room so they don’t keep staring at us all night. We’ve got at least a few hours to figure things out...”
“A few hours...?” he asked a stupid question as she took his hand and they walked back to the door.
She nodded, for once looking slightly sad about it, “In the morning, I’ll find Nine and end this.”