Chapter 244: Silence and Learning
The flight to Nine’s location, a surprisingly unoccupied planet not at all far from Alraxia, was nearly completely silent. The only noises were the usual inner workings and sounds of Kanyaks. Hermes had, at first, attempted to question Shadow about Kyren, but soon came to the conclusion that he wished to speak of it as little as she did. And so there was nothing else to say. Anything they did say would eventually lead down that path...sooner than later, most likely.
Shadow sat quietly in the small ship, finding another pain had grown. She missed Loki. It had been so long. She knew that Nine had definitely tricked the ship...but couldn’t help wondering, and worrying, what had happened since that initial theft...no...kidnaping. Would he just go on with Nine? Or did he even know?! If she sill had him...and Kyren was there, would Loki even believe the there was anything at all wrong with the Marix piloting him? Probably not. I made the situation all the more depressing...especially since she’d have to explain this all to Loki when she finally found him.
When. Not if.
Shadow didn’t leave friends behind anymore than Jyren did, and Loki was the one she’d known the longest. They had, quite literally, grown up together. Loki being hatched and raised specifically for her, and they bonded quickly. The only time she had been away from him was after Palpatine’s Empire had captured her and...and...
Yes, that had been a long time, but it was different. She had known Loki was safe...asleep and taking a well deserved rest while he waited for her to return. But now...now this was different. For all she knew, Loki thought he was with her the entire time. Which meant he may not believe that she really was the real Marix. And she was now. Though she still used the name Shadow, even when thinking of herself, she truly was Marix BlueIce. Eventually, that was going to have to be something she accepted.
Eventually.
[We are here.] Hermes cut in softly and cautiously.
Opening her eyes to an orange and green tinted world, Shadow sighed to herself and waited, leaving control to Hermes. He flew through the atmosphere and across the rocky, orange cliffs of the southern hemisphere before the scattered, oddly shaped trees began to appear. The planet, to a point, resembled Alraxia and the Capital...but then again, most worlds in the Empire did. The temperature would be warm enough that a morphsuit would not be required to keep her body warm, but Shadow would keep it on anyway. It was something familiar in a time of everything trying to go wrong.
Banking to the west and following the very specific coordinates, Hermes headed towards a large, open clearing. Exactly where they were supposed to be...and early, even. Nine would be watching and waiting. She would not be like Ket and put on a show, though it would likely be broadcast across the whole Empire. Shadow would have to be on her guard the second her foot stepped down into view.
“Thank you, Hermes,” she spoke quietly, standing up and readying herself for whatever was to occur out there.
* * * *
Jyren’s flight to Alraxia was not nearly as silent as Shadow’s was. He spent the first few minutes in the swirling blue trying to sleep...knowing how badly he needed it. Typically, though, that hadn’t worked too well. Shifting in the uncomfortably human sized seat and trying not to sit on his tail became just as annoying after a short time, and then finally he decided he needed to stop brooding to himself and talk.
The soft blue, slightly shimmering image of his mother hung projected from the cube-shaped holocron in his hand. In a voice he’d already come to be strongly familiar with, she said, “If you do not believe in your abilities and trust in the Force, then you will fail.”
Obviously, he’d been venting and not saying the most productive things in the galaxy. Jyren nodded slowly, “I just don’t know what to believe anymore. I can’t even believe I’m actually doing this.”
“But you are doing it” his mother said in firm words, nodding her head at the same time, “If you go to this planet with even a seed of doubt, you will fail and lose everything you are fighting for.”
Jyren blinked, then grumbled, “Thank you for taking the pressure off of my shoulders. I feel so much better now, mother.”
Andrea Tavos’ image smiled gently, but she ignored his sarcasm. In fact, she went on as if he’d not even said a thing in the first place. There was a pause, a thoughtful look on her image’s face, and then she asked quietly, “What are you fighting for, Jyren?”
The question was simple. So simple, in fact, that it stopped him right in his tracks. He knew what he was fighting for, right?
...right?
His first mistake was to think about it, and he didn’t realize it until a few minutes later when he was no farther than before he’d started. Jyren sighed heavily, took a deep breath, and said quietly, “I’m fighting because I have to.”
“No, Jyren, you don’t have to,” his mother responded in an almost disturbingly calm voice. When he sared blankly at her image, she went on, “You have become so set in this need to fight and fight and fight that you haven’t even considered that this may not be your fight...or may not even be a fight at all.”
He opened his mouth to protest, but only an “Buh...” came out. There were no words at all forming. In fact, barely any sounds were forming either.
It was amazing how this holocron image of his mother took advantage of Jyren’s silence, “You have told me that you wish to be a Jedi. I can help you, and I can teach you...but I can do nothing for you if the only solution to a situation you can come up with is to fight. I may have learned much from the old Alraxian Force tradition, but that still does not change the fact that the Jedi way is not one in which violence is ever a solution. You do not simply charge in swinging a lightsaber at every situation presented to you.”
Jyren sighed heavily, hung his head, and managed a hint of a nod. She was right, of course. Not only was she right, but so was Shadow, who had been telling him the same thing in less blunt terms for a very long time. Looking down, Jyren’s eyes locked onto the two lightsabers hooked on his belt. They, along with the belt, to be truthful, looked horribly out of place when placed over the morphsuit he wore. Did they always look like that?
Glancing up, Jyren found at least some of his voice, “But there’s no other choice. Ket won’t listen to me...he’s got an entire army with him. Even without his army he’ll go on fighting...I can feel it. I...I have to stop him. I have to kill him.”
Except for the hum of the systems, the cockpit of Jyren’s X-Wing was silent. His mother had a knowing look on her face and was looking at him very closely. It made him feel like he had said something wrong. But there wasn’t anything else! Not now! Not after everything that had happened!
“Good,” the word nearly shocked Jyren. His mother had the usual soft smile on her face, “I did not say there was another way all of the time. Simply, that violence should never be your first solution.”
“But you said it is never the Jedi way...” Jyren mumbled, not really wanting to argue, but actually trying to understand.
His mother nodded, “It is not, and you must live with that. It is not an easy thing to accept, but the very nature of taking a life is contradictory to everything in the Jedi way. You must balance this contradiction with control of your emotions and give yourself to the Force. You must not be emotionless, but accept that what you are doing is not the best solution that could have happened. Learn from your mistakes, and hope to change things the next time...otherwise, you will quickly fall down a very dark path.”
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