Tale Weaver's Vampire: The Masquerade Game Board

[ladyphoenix]

That hurt Koln much more than Clover's strike. He turns and sits down next to Ruby with his head in his hands. "I know I did... I'm sorry Ruby, at the time I wasn't entirely certain what I was going to do. But for some reason, the appeal of nothingness, I don't think you understand, I pray you don't... but please try to forgive me, I will never leave you again, I promise."

Ruby placed her sewing needle down and bowed her head. "I'm sorry, I thought I could keep you out of my mind and nonexistent heart, but it just cannot be done, I wanted to prepare for the worse..." she said clenching back tears. "But I cannot anymore, I am too weak put keep you away from my heart anymore.." she opened them and stared at his eyes. "We need you here with us, I need you here.." with that she quickly gave him a tight hug, remembering his earlier embrace. The sewing needle stuck in her shoulder, giving her a pinch but she didn't care..

 

[Strider_Koln]

Ruby placed her sewing needle down and bowed her head. "I'm sorry, I thought I could keep you out of my mind and nonexistent heart, but it just cannot be done, I wanted to prepare for the worse..." she said clenching back tears. "But I cannot anymore, I am too weak put keep you away from my heart anymore.." she opened them and stared at his eyes. "We need you here with us, I need you here.." with that she quickly gave him a tight hug, remembering his earlier embrace. The sewing needle stuck in her shoulder, giving her a pinch but she didn't care..

If Koln had a beating heart it would have stopped the second Ruby looked into his eyes. It is strange, he was brought up thinking that vampires lacked souls; he still believed that. He also believed that the eyes are windows to the soul. To his surprise, in Ruby's eyes he sees such vibrant vitality, such life, and beauty.

He holds her tightly to himself and whispers another apology. He looks again into her eyes, preparing himself to tell her that the feeling is more than mutual, how much he desires an eternity with her, how quickly he would forsake the promise of Heaven and Divine reconciliation for an earthly existence by her side. His lips begin to move to her's until he smells a familiar scent: blood, heretic blood at that. "Oh.. your needle.." Koln takes the tip and gently pulls it out of her shoulder. He places the needle down on the nearby desk, but can't help but give his red fingertips a quick covert lick. Her blood, despite being of vampiric origin and having no affect on his growing base hunger, is unexplicably satisfying.

"Heh, figures, seems all I do is cause you pain. Er, I'm sorry if I was too forward just now... "

While his heart is still trapped in this moment, his mind wanders for a moment to Clover. Hopefully she knows that he does not mean to neglect her.

 

[izillama]

[sblock=Clover's Inner Dialogue] 'Damnit! Why? Why did I walk out like that?! Are you a coward? Did your parents not bring you up right? Face your problems! Face your friends! You owe them that much! No. Who am I kidding? There's nothing to face. You're pathetic. You're a pathetic, sorry, whiny little bitch who wouldn't know what to do with herself if everything didn't go her way! Talk about being sickened. It's not Ruby and Koln. It's you! It's all you! Look at this. Look at what you've become.'
Clover punched the wall of the shower stall. Her knuckles crushed feebly against the tile.
'Made you peace? Ha! You might be an even sorrier piece of now than you were before! You should have killed yourself when you had the chance. Now look at you! No chance for redemption. No chance for heaven or hell. Nothing! You're nothing! And you look at Ruby and Koln and you want that? Do you!? Well you screwed up. You screwed up terribly! You'll never have that chance! There's no use envying them. No use being jealous. If you were a monster before, you're even worse now! The lowest of the low...'
Angry. Scared. Confused. Clover found herself biting down heatedly on her own wrist to keep from screaming. To keep from crying out in terror at hearing her own inner dialogue. Her own poisonous thoughts come to the forefront of her mind. Blood seeped in crimson rivulets down her arm, quickly washed away by the stream of the water. Red swirled in the drain. She bit deeper. Her eyes narrowed, on the verge of insanity.
'How dare you? How dare you!? It was never mean to... BE like this! You should die! You shouldn't be here. You should die! You have no right to be jealous of them! You're terrible. You're a terrible, awful, horrible person and you don't deserve to exist on this Earth any longer! Stop making people SUFFER!'
She felt her eyes tear as she bit further, then released. The pain she had inflicted on herself made the pain lessen. Almost. But it did not fully go away. These thoughts... these horrible, manacle, positively suicidal thoughts were her own. Her own cross to bear.
She felt utterly alone. No one to cling to. No one cared. Not even herself. [/sblock]

Clover glanced unaffectedly at the rat and was just a bit surprised when she couldn't figure out where it had gone.
But what did it matter? What did any of this matter anymore? In the grand scheme of things (being vampires, having a strong vampire who wanted them dead, being convicted to an eternity of lonliness) not being able to find the source of the rat seemed miniscule.
Clover hugged her towel closer to her form. She felt like she couldn't go back and face Ruby and Koln. Not yet. She felt terrible and ashamed of her actions. Her thoughts.
She sunk down the wall and sat right on the floor, staring hard at her wounded wrist.
Nothing would make it better.
It was not going to be ok.
She bit into herself again and nursed her self-suffering.
Ruby and Koln shouldn't have to bear her pain. She would leave them their time alone.

 

[ladyphoenix]

If Koln had a beating heart it would have stopped the second Ruby looked into his eyes. It is strange, he was brought up thinking that vampires lacked souls; he still believed that. He also believed that the eyes are windows to the soul. To his surprise, in Ruby's eyes he sees such vibrant vitality, such life, and beauty.

He holds her tightly to himself and whispers another apology. He looks again into her eyes, preparing himself to tell her that the feeling is more than mutual, how much he desires an eternity with her, how quickly he would forsake the promise of Heaven and Divine reconciliation for an earthly existence by her side. His lips begin to move to her's until he smells a familiar scent: blood, heretic blood at that. "Oh.. your needle.." Koln takes the tip and gently pulls it out of her shoulder. He places the needle down on the nearby desk, but can't help but give his red fingertips a quick covert lick. Her blood, despite being of vampiric origin and having no affect on his growing base hunger, is unexplicably satisfying.

"Heh, figures, seems all I do is cause you pain. Er, I'm sorry if I was too forward just now... "

While his heart is still trapped in this moment, his mind wanders for a moment to Clover. Hopefully she knows that he does not mean to neglect her.

Ruby's face flushed a pale pink for a second. Was that really happening just now?? She bowed her head in shyness. "No its fine Koln, we are both in a very vulnerable emotional state right now from everything thats just happened now," She said as she stood herself. She felt a cement wall encase her again, it was probably for the best at this time. Guilt set in once again about leaving them to die at the hands of Prestor's experiments, she was not fit to accept love with that burden. She studied her garment and its neat new cross stitching and stretched her arms. Her bulk seemed to shrink considerably and she didn't look like an amazon anymore.
"Maybe I should try to teach Clover some fighting moves as well, I don't know how they have mysteriously stuck with me fight after fight, but somehow, when I seem more feral, I instinctively think of ways to take out someone.. It seems a little scary sometimes, but if it's to protect her and you, so be it.." she said awkwardly, trying to be serious once more.

After a brief pause, she knocked on Clover's bathroom door, it seemed like she was taking a while. "Everything ok Clover, if you'd like, I'd like to show you some fighting moves," she said while forcing a lighthearted chuckle.

 

[izillama]

[sblock=Clover's Inner Dialogue]'Dark. It's so dark. And cold. And hard. What am I doing here? Sitting on the floor. Slowly carving away pieces of myself, bit by bit. Clover, your mother would be so ashamed. Do you see her now? She's crying for you. You haven't spoken to her in weeks. What would she say if she could see you now? Lonely and embarrassed, huddled on the floor of the bathroom like a woman in distress. Stop agonizing. The walls are caving...' [/sblock]
"Everything ok Clover, if you'd like, I'd like to show you some fighting moves. Heheh."
Clover's eyes flicked to the door. Ruby had come after her. How long had she been gone? Were Ruby and Koln... done?
Self-concious, she stood. The blood on her wrist still flowed freely. How was she going to take care of that?
She strode to the sink and held it under the water. The color was mesmerizing.
She called back, "Um... I'll be right there, Ruby..." Her voice trailed off. The wounds were closing.
She took one last taste of her own blood.
Evil and iron. Full of malice.

 

[Strider_Koln]

Koln is standing outside of the bathroom with Ruby. He is worried, he understood that women typically took a long time in the bathroom, but not this long. He knocks, "Hey Clover, come quickly! I kinda accidently set your desk on fire! I didn't mean to!! I just meant to set your evil television ablaze, that's all! Hahaha, I'm just kidding, hurry up, I am looking forward to a spar with you and Ruby."

As he speaks he looks at Ruby once again and contemplates his new emotions. He was taught that vampires certainly were not capable of love. God is Love, vampires are removed from God's Will, therefore vampires could never know love. Perhaps, he's got it wrong... maybe, just maybe... he's not really a vampire at all! Perfect! Oh wait, no, still have fangs, dammit... confused again, but that's of no surprise, he is insane afterall, and one of the most powerful forms of lunacy is love itself...

"Ok Clover, a few more minutes, but if you're not out in a half hour, I will just assume the likely has happened. A feral imp has invaded the girl's bathroom, carried you naked and screaming to Hades and has replaced you with a changeling succubus. I will then kick down this door and roll in with guns blazing. Hahaha.. is he kidding? Heh ok, see you soon."

 

[izillama]

"Ok Clover, a few more minutes, but if you're not out in a half hour, I will just assume the likely has happened. A feral imp has invaded the girl's bathroom, carried you naked and screaming to Hades and has replaced you with a changeling succubus. I will then kick down this door and roll in with guns blazing. Hahaha.. is he kidding? Heh ok, see you soon."
click
The door opened slowly and Clover shyly peeked out at her friends, showing them no more than one darkened lavender eye, "I'm sorry to make you both worry so much. I'll be out in a few moments. I promise. Oh, Koln? I saw a rat in here before, but I didn't get a good look at him. Have you seen Socrates lately?"

 

[Tale_Weaver]

University of Denver

"Ok Clover, a few more minutes, but if you're not out in a half hour, I will just assume the likely has happened. A feral imp has invaded the girl's bathroom, carried you naked and screaming to Hades and has replaced you with a changeling succubus. I will then kick down this door and roll in with guns blazing. Hahaha.. is he kidding? Heh ok, see you soon."
click
The door opened slowly and Clover shyly peeked out at her friends, showing them no more than one darkened lavender eye, "I'm sorry to make you both worry so much. I'll be out in a few moments. I promise. Oh, Koln? I saw a rat in here before, but I didn't get a good look at him. Have you seen Socrates lately?"

When Koln searches for Socrates in his pocket he finds him. He produces the rat who has the look of innocence on his face. "Wasn't me ^^"

 

[izillama]

"Oh, ok."

 

[Strider_Koln]

Back at the room Koln lays back on the floor, crossing his arms over his chest and slowly shuts his eyes. Tonight was a good birthday.