Once, Twice, Three times a Hive

[Ginnel]

Well, yeah - also just here because of the ENW "Summer Camp" at CM. Though I usually prefer CM as an outlet for random chattering... by the way, what's your screenname at CM, because I get the feeling that I had a Dr. Midnight-moment!

Cheers, LT.

I was Ginnel there too, but I don't go there unless someone links from the Hive

 

[Blackrat]

But me too I wouldn't have invited you unless I trusted you as a friend because of the pictures of my then girlfriend *HUGS*
Yup but then surely everyone had at least a passing thought of how the hell would a newbie find the Hive, I only got here because of Blackrat and CM *Huggles Rat*

You did? Wow. How'd that happen? I don't remember talking to you before you came to the Hive, but my memory ain't too good...

 

[Ginnel]

I know. I was just teasing.

And the feeling is mutual. I like me, too!

But you forgot the smilie on your previous post!!

Everyone loves froggy he's great and so is blackrat, and so is Aeson, and so is Goldmoon, and so is Warlock, and so is Relique, and so is Galeros, and so is LT, and so is Mustruuuuummmm!, and so is MEGA!!!, and so is Knightfall, and so is Shabe (well he is my twin ), and so is Clevernickname, and so is Darkness, and so is Phaezen, and so is Mycanid, and so is Aurora, and so is Matt Freeman, and so is Sir Osis of Liver, and so is I'm so gonna miss someone obvious out, and so is this was so a bad idea because of the previous and so is.

 

[Goldmoon]

Allright hive, I have all these feelings swirling around and I'm going to try to put them to words.

I didnt have a traumatic childhood or anything. I wasnt abused or asaulted by friends or relatives or strangers. Starting in high school however I had a series of disasters with men. I was lied to, cheated on or abandoned by any man I put my trust into. This trend continued throughout my adult life. Maybe I was too forgiving or naive or trusting even, I'm not sure honestly. Maybe it wasnt even me. Maybe I just met every guy within a ten mile radius of me. At any rate I began to rethink my priorities and choice in life. Three important things happened in my life then. First, I fell in love with a woman, second I came out and was disowned by my father and third I came here to the hive. The first thing ended badly. It wasnt completely her fault. She always wanted more than I could give at the time which was my fault. My trust issues got in the way of a beautiful relationship and I will always miss her and regret what almost was. The second was devistating as well. My father was the last man on earth I thought would let me down. The third thing had been a bright spot up until now. In the beginning I guess I opened up to you because I didnt know you and didnt care if you judged me. Then I got to know some of you and actually found friendship. I realized this when I was away for all that time. I finally was able to come back here and the Hive became my refuge. My new career path was like nothing I had ever experienced and I wasnt quite ready for the changes it forced on me. Here in the Hive I could continue to be me and be among friends who understood me and wouldnt judge me. Rev was one of the people I bonded with for some reason. He and I talked early on about choices I had made and how they affected me. Now I just feel like I'm being kicked and beaten and all I can do is curl up and cover. I know I have true friends here in the Hive and I'm trying not to lump everyone together. I dont know why I'm saying all this actually. Maybe I just need to vent and I'm so sorry for being so long winded. I still consider the Hive my home away from home.

Eponine

 

[Ginnel]

Allright hive, I have all these feelings swirling around and I'm going to try to put them to words.

I didnt have a traumatic childhood or anything. I wasnt abused or asaulted by friends or relatives or strangers. Starting in high school however I had a series of disasters with men. I was lied to, cheated on or abandoned by any man I put my trust into. This trend continued throughout my adult life. Maybe I was too forgiving or naive or trusting even, I'm not sure honestly. Maybe it wasnt even me. Maybe I just met every guy within a ten mile radius of me. At any rate I began to rethink my priorities and choice in life. Three important things happened in my life then. First, I fell in love with a woman, second I came out and was disowned by my father and third I came here to the hive. The first thing ended badly. It wasnt completely her fault. She always wanted more than I could give at the time which was my fault. My trust issues got in the way of a beautiful relationship and I will always miss her and regret what almost was. The second was devistating as well. My father was the last man on earth I thought would let me down. The third thing had been a bright spot up until now. In the beginning I guess I opened up to you because I didnt know you and didnt care if you judged me. Then I got to know some of you and actually found friendship. I realized this when I was away for all that time. I finally was able to come back here and the Hive became my refuge. My new career path was like nothing I had ever experienced and I wasnt quite ready for the changes it forced on me. Here in the Hive I could continue to be me and be among friends who understood me and wouldnt judge me. Rev was one of the people I bonded with for some reason. He and I talked early on about choices I had made and how they affected me. Now I just feel like I'm being kicked and beaten and all I can do is curl up and cover. I know I have true friends here in the Hive and I'm trying not to lump everyone together. I dont know why I'm saying all this actually. Maybe I just need to vent and I'm so sorry for being so long winded. I still consider the Hive my home away from home.

Eponine

I will reitterate the Hug sentiment in my previous post.

 

[Blackrat]

Now I just feel like I'm being kicked and beaten and all I can do is curl up and cover.

*Pats Goldie on the head*

I wish I could do more, but alas, that has to do 'cause I can't hug you for real.

 

[The_Warlock]

Allright hive, I have all these feelings swirling around and I'm going to try to put them to words.

Well done.

And, as Ginnel said...."Hugs"

PS: And no apologizing for getting that off your chest.

PPS: Whatever that lag I was experiencing from my work connection is not present at home. Excellent.

 

[hafrogman]

Maybe I just need to vent and I'm so sorry for being so long winded.

Vent away. Don't apologize.

I still consider the Hive my home away from home.

This is probably the most important thing that's been said today. We've been battered (and deep-fried), but the Hive has to remain the Hive, and we're still all Hivers.

 

[Goldmoon]

I'm going to bed. I havent cried this hard in many years and I'm exhaused. I'll see you all later. *hugs her hive family*

 

[Relique du Madde]

Allright hive, I have all these feelings swirling around and I'm going to try to put them to words.

SNIP

Now I just feel like I'm being kicked and beaten and all I can do is curl up and cover. I know I have true friends here in the Hive and I'm trying not to lump everyone together. I dont know why I'm saying all this actually. Maybe I just need to vent and I'm so sorry for being so long winded. I still consider the Hive my home away from home.

Eponine

Everyone here feels the same way. We gave so much emotion so much friendship only to be slapped in the fact with it and left hollow inside. Making matters worse is that someone decided for what ever reasons to defile the trust we gave and the "virtual homE" we visit.



Ironically wasn't it "Desert Hare" that I said "trust no one" to about a week or so ago and was who toke exception to it (in response to alts or something)? I wonder, he Rev thought the jig was up back then.