Quickleaf
Legend
Sure yeah, I can relate - I’m definitely an outlier and my tastes don’t neatly line up with any edition of D&D.
That is one of the reasons I picked up my old setting and instead of continuing to write it for D&D, I’m letting it become its own thing (aka fantasy heartbreaker).
A GM who lives long enough will become a games designer, right?
I’ve been enjoying playing other games right now - I’m playing Delta Green tomorrow and then in a few weeks running AD&D1e with Unearthed Arcana/Dragon mag/OSRIC. Deepening your exposure to games may not “answer” all your questions, but every couple games you might have an ah-hah moment “THAT’S what I’m looking for!”
That is one of the reasons I picked up my old setting and instead of continuing to write it for D&D, I’m letting it become its own thing (aka fantasy heartbreaker).
A GM who lives long enough will become a games designer, right?

I’ve been enjoying playing other games right now - I’m playing Delta Green tomorrow and then in a few weeks running AD&D1e with Unearthed Arcana/Dragon mag/OSRIC. Deepening your exposure to games may not “answer” all your questions, but every couple games you might have an ah-hah moment “THAT’S what I’m looking for!”