Gabriel 'Gabe' Adams, HP 2/2
Eleyna said:
It wasn't her intention to send him off-balance like that. Eleyna felt instantly horrible. I should just tell him the truth. It's not like it's really a big deal, not compared to his problems. Plus, he so sweet and he just wants to help and there's really no way it can hurt him... not really... She would have liked to think that were true. But look at them now. Something was different. They were getting closer just sitting here talking, she felt a connection. But, the closer they got, the more she might end up hurting him. No, it wasn't fair to him.
"Sure, um... yeah, we can get, uh... we can get something to eat, if that's what you want... But... um... Gabe? First, I... yeah, I could really use a friend right now, too, so... It's just that... I haven't talked to anyone in such a long time. I trust you, I do... I just need some... I need a little time to..." Guilt overwhelmed her - she was supposed to be helping Gabe, not making things more complicated for him. But she couldn't stop the tears welling up in her eyes, and it became clear to Gabe whatever she had to say, it was very difficult for her to do so. She turned away from him, her voice edged with an urgency and desperation that Gabe couldn't ignore. "I just don't want you to think that this... that my stuff is more important than you. I just don't want anyone to suffer for my problems. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore!”
Shocks of pain began to surge in her abdomen...
Gabe had leapt up almost before Eleyna had finished talking and moved over to her, his face a mask of shocked worry and compassion.
"Eleyna, it's alright, it's really alright.."
Gabe moved over, gently putting his hands on Eleyna's shoulders and moving so he could see her face. He looked very serious, more so than Eleyna thought she'd ever seen him. The words poured out of him, spoken with a compassion and conviction that Eleyna had never heard from Gabe.
"Look, Eleyna...I'm not competing for attention with your problems. I have my problems, and you have helped and are helping me with them. But you shouldn't feel that you have to put other people's problems *before* your own; you shouldn't feel that you aren't allowed to have time for your own reasons, or think that having such time betrays people you're helping. You're not hurting people by having problems, Eleyna; nobody lives a life free of them. You're hurting yourself by feeling guilty over having your own problems, and it hurts other people to see you hurting. People care about you, Eleyna. They worry about you. Friendship, and understanding, and supporting other people through their problems..it works both ways. You shouldn't feel that you have to deal with whatever it is alone; you shouldn't feel that you're intruding on your friends if you ask for their help. You'd do whatever you could for your friends, I know you would. Accept that other people feel that way about you! I know...I know I do."
Gabe sagged slightly after his impassioned speech, obviously unused to such intense speaking, but his eyes remained steady, fixed on Eleyna's, and his hands remained a comforting presence on her shoulders. There was no deceit in his expression; just a powerful compassion and a deep understanding. He spoke again, his words quieter, but still full of an underlying sincerity.
"Eleyna..whatever the matter is, I'll be here for you. You're not hurting me by asking for help. You're not making me suffer by admitting that you have problems of your own. If..if I can help you, I will. Believe that."
Gabe embraced Eleyna gently, trying to express his support in deeds if the words hadn't already managed it, the idea of food already forgotten.