Kallithyia: Palmaid/Female (Amazon)
RA: [sblock]* Kallithyia felt and looked like Catullus had physical struck her down. She even backpedaled from him on weak knees and touched her hands to her breasts as she looked down half expecting a dagger to be striking out of her… Did he know? Did he truly care so little for her? Was it possible to recover so he wouldn’t know? *
“Catullus, what makes you think I…” she stopped herself short of saying the words, she couldn’t bring herself to lie to the man she loved, “then I guess I have no favor to ask of you other than to forget I ever asked you for a favor…”
Kallithyia continued to explain absently as she moved out of arms reach of Catullus, “I talked to Aspasia… She believes that for the most part that I will recover from the torture and abuse that happened to me but it will take lots and lots of time… She also believes that for me to truly recover, for me to ever be truly whole again, that I need to experience pleasure from a man… but I do not love men, Tully!” Kallithyia screamed firmly in her anguish even though she wouldn’t ever remember screaming, “I do not…”
Kallithyia paused and shuddered in her grief, “but I do love you, Tully. Honesty, why would a Conacian Nymph, someone born with a dislike for men, be put through such torture and pain? Why would she suffer the indignity of being raped ten, twenty, maybe even thirty times a day for nearly a year if it wasn’t so she could learn humility so she could love a man? Why would a Conacian Nymph suffer through the hardships of three years of fighting in the pits if it wasn’t so that she would learn what true misery was so she could see the true happiness that loving a single man would be? Why would a Conacian Nymph be asked to murder everything and everyone she ever loved if it wasn’t so her heart would be cleared for her to love the man she was suppose to love? Why would someone the Conacian Nymph hated so much giver her so much love and compassion if he wasn’t the man she was destined to love?”
“Tully! Don’t you see just how much I have suffered so I can love you as you should be loved!” she sunk to her knees far to beaten to continue on as she cried passionately and looked upon Catullus in utterly distraught, “please, Tully, I will be whatever you desire to be… Just don’t reject me…”
* Kallithyia’s wet eyes continued to pleaded with Catullus even as her words ended... * [/sblock]