Wayne if it helps I 'd like to share something with you. When I was a teenager my grandfather passed away. He wasn't the first relative I'd lost, but at the time he was the by far the closest person I'd lost in terms of emotional attachment. I'm usually pretty good in times of crisis, always have been (it's normal day to day stuff that always does me in). I tried to be stoic about it, be strong for everyone else involved, and my mom saw that I was holding back tears, and she said something to me that has stuck, "It's ok to cry, he was worth it." Since then over the years I've lost a few other people and I always remember to make time and space to personally grieve. I find that the best way is to share what I remember about the person with others, so I think if you want to tell us about your mom, that your community of close, semi-anonymous friends would be glad to listen.
Larry Fitzgerald