Ankh-Morpork Guard
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Chapter 168: Annoyances and Anger
Long hours passed. Time was slow when all you could do was wait. It just hung there in the ship, the same way the ship hung in the blackness of space. The only thing to give any kind of sense of movement was that huge floating ring, a black nothing in the center of it. At least the rest of space had little white holes of light here and there, giving some semblance of sanity in the universe. Some proof that the ship wasn’t alone in the vast galaxy. Some hint that maybe, somewhere out there, all of this really mattered. Except within the blackness of the ring. Sometimes simple words were all that could describe complex situations. This was one of them. This was, in its purest form, annoying.
As Shadow sat in the small room of the ship that was technically the lounge. However, there were no chairs, tables, or places other than the metal deck to lounge on. There was, though, a large, open viewport that encompassed a half of the room. Sitting there next to the window, meditating as best was possible in the circumstances, it was easy to lose oneself and forget that it was actually metal all around. But it was impossible to focus completely. Too many worries, too many thoughts, and then other things that she didn’t even understand. The other things were the problem, really. Worries and thoughts were old problems that could be worked through. But the rest was just...distracting in a way that didn’t make any sense to her.
And of course, right on cue as usual, there was a soft hiss on the other side of the room as the door opened. Opening her eyes, Shadow turned and looked to Akan, surprised to see he was holding something. She got to her feet as he quietly walked over and noticed the thing in his arms was Tobias, curled up and probably still asleep. Through their link, she could feel Akan running through a question but instead of letting him ask it, one of those other things took hold and she asked quietly while reaching out towards the small, black furred child, “May I...?”
There was a pause, and it was obvious that Akan had been surprised by that. Another moment passed before he nodded somewhat uneasily and carefully handed the jai over. She awkwardly cradled Tobias in her arms, watching as his stub of a tail twitched slightly. The soft purring noise didn’t falter at all and after a couple of minutes of silence, Shadow said quietly, “Brat or not, he is the future. It is our...our responsibility to protect that for him.”
Akan raised an eyebrow at that, taking a quick second to glance past her and out the viewport, “You alright?”
“I don’t know,” she said slowly after having to think about it. Turning, she walked over to the viewport again, “This isn’t like what we’ve done before, Akan. We’re not just trying to save our own tails anymore. My...our people are out there and they are going to die without us. And if we go, its even more likely that we will die.”
“The two of us can’t make that much of a difference,” Akan said, his voice flat and easily expressing the worry over that.
She glanced over her shoulder, “You’d be surprised. But you do deserve to know that we’re probably not going to live through this.”
“I hate feeling like I’m just along for the ride,” grumbled Akan under his breath, picking up on the fact that she was only including him to be polite.
“This is my burden, Akan,” Shadow said sharply, though quietly enough to hopefully not wake Tobias. There was a fierce look in her eyes, though her voice calmed again, “Your honour is harmed enough by even being with me. I’m not going to let you bring yourself any lower just so you can be a noble Jedi.”
Akan nearly threw up his arms in frustration and barely managed to keep his voice at a normal level, “Honour?! What the hell does honour have to do with anything”
“Everything!” she snapped back harshly, turning to face him so she didn’t have to keep hurting her neck to look over her shoulder.
“I don’t care!” he was yelling now, forgetting about Tobias and for some reason unable to control the sudden...anger, “Honour doesn’t matter! I’m not here to be some tourist! I am here to fight. To help you. You have no right to prevent that when you know you need my help!”
Before she could yell back at him, Tobias woke up with a wail. Shadow glared at the screaming little child before storming over to Akan and shoving Tobias into him. As Akan tried to quiet the child, Shadow said slowly and dangerously, “I have every right to! I know where we are going better than you. I know you better than you do! You are not ready for any of this. You’re barely able to stop acting like a child and you want to run in there lightsaber ablaze?! That won’t work here, Akan.”
Without another word, she stalked off past him and out of the lounge, fuming to the point that she was nearly physically steaming. Akan was just as angry, but had been left to try and quiet the still screaming Tobias. And after that finally happened, the child drifted back to sleep again. It left Akan to look out into space, out into that damned emptiness within the huge ring. Through it all, though, he couldn’t help but shake the feeling that there was much more through it. More than even Shadow realized. But when he tried to reach out to her through the link, he was surprised to find a wall there. A nothing.
It was an emptiness as black as the spot within the ring. Through the Force, Akan could feel Shadow as a bubble of boiling anger somewhere else in the ship...but through the link, nothing. Nothing. Even with Tobias there in his arms, Akan couldn’t help but being overwhelmed by the feeling of loneliness. So overpowering that he found himself unable to even think anymore. And for the first time, Akan truly understood how powerful the link he shared with Shadow was...now that he was cut off from it.
((A short one, but I'm exhausted tonight. Can't figure out why, either. Got to get back into the groove of updating daily and these will get better again.
))
Long hours passed. Time was slow when all you could do was wait. It just hung there in the ship, the same way the ship hung in the blackness of space. The only thing to give any kind of sense of movement was that huge floating ring, a black nothing in the center of it. At least the rest of space had little white holes of light here and there, giving some semblance of sanity in the universe. Some proof that the ship wasn’t alone in the vast galaxy. Some hint that maybe, somewhere out there, all of this really mattered. Except within the blackness of the ring. Sometimes simple words were all that could describe complex situations. This was one of them. This was, in its purest form, annoying.
As Shadow sat in the small room of the ship that was technically the lounge. However, there were no chairs, tables, or places other than the metal deck to lounge on. There was, though, a large, open viewport that encompassed a half of the room. Sitting there next to the window, meditating as best was possible in the circumstances, it was easy to lose oneself and forget that it was actually metal all around. But it was impossible to focus completely. Too many worries, too many thoughts, and then other things that she didn’t even understand. The other things were the problem, really. Worries and thoughts were old problems that could be worked through. But the rest was just...distracting in a way that didn’t make any sense to her.
And of course, right on cue as usual, there was a soft hiss on the other side of the room as the door opened. Opening her eyes, Shadow turned and looked to Akan, surprised to see he was holding something. She got to her feet as he quietly walked over and noticed the thing in his arms was Tobias, curled up and probably still asleep. Through their link, she could feel Akan running through a question but instead of letting him ask it, one of those other things took hold and she asked quietly while reaching out towards the small, black furred child, “May I...?”
There was a pause, and it was obvious that Akan had been surprised by that. Another moment passed before he nodded somewhat uneasily and carefully handed the jai over. She awkwardly cradled Tobias in her arms, watching as his stub of a tail twitched slightly. The soft purring noise didn’t falter at all and after a couple of minutes of silence, Shadow said quietly, “Brat or not, he is the future. It is our...our responsibility to protect that for him.”
Akan raised an eyebrow at that, taking a quick second to glance past her and out the viewport, “You alright?”
“I don’t know,” she said slowly after having to think about it. Turning, she walked over to the viewport again, “This isn’t like what we’ve done before, Akan. We’re not just trying to save our own tails anymore. My...our people are out there and they are going to die without us. And if we go, its even more likely that we will die.”
“The two of us can’t make that much of a difference,” Akan said, his voice flat and easily expressing the worry over that.
She glanced over her shoulder, “You’d be surprised. But you do deserve to know that we’re probably not going to live through this.”
“I hate feeling like I’m just along for the ride,” grumbled Akan under his breath, picking up on the fact that she was only including him to be polite.
“This is my burden, Akan,” Shadow said sharply, though quietly enough to hopefully not wake Tobias. There was a fierce look in her eyes, though her voice calmed again, “Your honour is harmed enough by even being with me. I’m not going to let you bring yourself any lower just so you can be a noble Jedi.”
Akan nearly threw up his arms in frustration and barely managed to keep his voice at a normal level, “Honour?! What the hell does honour have to do with anything”
“Everything!” she snapped back harshly, turning to face him so she didn’t have to keep hurting her neck to look over her shoulder.
“I don’t care!” he was yelling now, forgetting about Tobias and for some reason unable to control the sudden...anger, “Honour doesn’t matter! I’m not here to be some tourist! I am here to fight. To help you. You have no right to prevent that when you know you need my help!”
Before she could yell back at him, Tobias woke up with a wail. Shadow glared at the screaming little child before storming over to Akan and shoving Tobias into him. As Akan tried to quiet the child, Shadow said slowly and dangerously, “I have every right to! I know where we are going better than you. I know you better than you do! You are not ready for any of this. You’re barely able to stop acting like a child and you want to run in there lightsaber ablaze?! That won’t work here, Akan.”
Without another word, she stalked off past him and out of the lounge, fuming to the point that she was nearly physically steaming. Akan was just as angry, but had been left to try and quiet the still screaming Tobias. And after that finally happened, the child drifted back to sleep again. It left Akan to look out into space, out into that damned emptiness within the huge ring. Through it all, though, he couldn’t help but shake the feeling that there was much more through it. More than even Shadow realized. But when he tried to reach out to her through the link, he was surprised to find a wall there. A nothing.
It was an emptiness as black as the spot within the ring. Through the Force, Akan could feel Shadow as a bubble of boiling anger somewhere else in the ship...but through the link, nothing. Nothing. Even with Tobias there in his arms, Akan couldn’t help but being overwhelmed by the feeling of loneliness. So overpowering that he found himself unable to even think anymore. And for the first time, Akan truly understood how powerful the link he shared with Shadow was...now that he was cut off from it.
((A short one, but I'm exhausted tonight. Can't figure out why, either. Got to get back into the groove of updating daily and these will get better again.
