Ankh-Morpork Guard
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Chapter 354
Marix shook her head and ran a hand through her hair, idly watching the black strands fall in front of her face before just pushing it all out of the way and turning to look to her side, where Tobias sat in Jyren’s seat. It was...strange. She was so used to turning and seeing Jyren staring right back to match her gaze when she looked that somehow it felt wrong to have Tobias there, staring off out the viewport at the nothingness of hyperspace.
It had been a fairly long time since she’d really looked at the young Alraxian...and seeing his profile now was almost haunting. He had the sharp features that were eerily similar to Ket Halpak’s, something that hadn’t appeared until recently. But there was something else, too...a softness in the eyes and the general shape of his face that reminded Marix more of her mother than anyone else. Of course, she was intelligent enough to know that it was her own features(or rather, that of the clone Delta Nine), but Marix still did her best to avoid those thoughts as much as possible.
And yet, defying all logic, there was more about Tobias that she couldn’t help noticing. The way his hair looked, including the metallic blue stripe down the center of his jet black hair, looked just like Marix knew Jyren had looked many years before she’d ever met him. And his attitude was also very disturbingly similar...though those two were likely due to Tobias’ very strong attachment to Jyren, it was still not something that Marix had expected at all.
“You are not a Jedi, Toby,” she finally said, in a calm voice that she was doing her best to hold...knowing that any adversarial tone would develop into a screaming match faster than if it was Jyren.
Tobias finally turned to face her and gave her a sharp look with two blue eyes that were, again, almost exactly the same colour as Jyren’s, “I know that!”
Alright, so it didn’t seem to matter what tone she used. Part of her couldn’t help but wonder if she had been that bad at that age...and then Marix quickly reminded herself that she had been much, much worse. There were many reasons why she’d left Alraxia when she was Toby’s age, and attitude was definitely not the least of them.
More carefully, Marix tried again, “This is not a game, Toby. We aren’t here playing around like back at home. There is a war here, and we’re trying to stop it from reaching our home...and like it or not, you are still a child. You cannot jump into a fight thinking you’re Jyren and expect to survive. Not here, and not now.”
“But when you were—“
”When I was your age, I was trained to be a killer,” Marix cut him off sharply. Not giving a chance for him to argue that, which he couldn’t, of course, she took a deep breath and attempted a more civil tone again, “You are not me. You are not Jyren. You are yourself, and trying to be either of us is just going to get yourself killed. I know you want to help, and I’m thankful for that, but you aren’t ready yet.”
Tobias sighed heavily and looked down at the deck, “Then why did you even let me come with you...?”
“Because you’d have snuck onboard Loki, anyway,” she answered flatly, giving a quick mental glare to the ship around them which would have easily allowed Toby in without letting her know, and then added, “And you can’t learn what its like out here without seeing it for yourself first. Stories can only teach so much.”
Through the Force, there was a sudden burst of at least slight understanding from Tobias and he looked up at her with a new brightness in his eyes, “You mean...?”
Marix nodded, holding back any hint of a smile, “Yes, I do. Both Jyren and I have taught you to defend yourself, but you won’t know how to use any of that until you’ve seen what things are actually like.”
[We’ll be ready to exit hyperspace in another five minutes.] Loki cut in at the best time he could find, speaking only to Marix at this point.
She glanced up, again out of habit, and then responded the same way...despite knowing that Toby would know he was keeping him out of the loop. [Its going to be up to you when we get there, Loki. I figure we’re looking for something big, but in all the mess of the Cron Drift it’ll be hard to spot anything.]
[You know I don’t miss anything.] the ship answered confidently.
Marix couldn’t help a smile at that.
But then Tobias cut in with a word that still, after eleven years, made her feel uneasy, “Mom?”
At least she didn’t outwardly cringe at that anymore, “What?”
“You don’t really think this is going to help us at all, do you?”
The question was as simple as the answer. In all honesty, Marix was amazed he’d waited that long to ask it.
No. No, it wouldn’t help. They could get a thousand ships to defend the gateway, but there simply weren’t enough Knights to crew them all...not even counting the amount of time it would take to both desensitize them to the fact that the ships were metal and then actually train them to use the systems. Sure, the Empire was full of different species, but it was the Alraxian Empire. The Alraxians were the strength and the point to which all the others held, and the Knights were, almost exclusively, Alraxian. Even changing that would not save the Empire from the Yuuzhan Vong if an attack really came.
The Mrrakesh were not stupid...they would be watching what was going on just as much as the Alraxians were. An offensive on the gateway and that side of the Alraxian Empire would mean that the Mrrakesh could easily attack the border on the other side and divide the small defense force that the Empire had between two overwhelming fights. Not that the Mrrakesh were that belligerent anymore, but their leader changed so much that it was hard to tell what kind of maniac might decide that it was finally time to get rid of those damned felines that had been a constant bother for thousands of years.
Marix sighed and leaned back in her seat before looking back over to the young Tobias, “If you ask that question, you already know the answer.”
It took a moment, but eventually the young Alraxian nodded slowly. And, of course, a question was quick to follow, “Then what are we really doing out here?”
“Giving the people of the Empire hope that it will help,” she said in a slow voice, almost sounding like she didn’t believe her own words.
That, Tobias understood, but he still was able to pick up that she wasn’t being completely truthful, “That can’t be all.”
Finally, Marix allowed herself another smile aimed towards Toby, “It isn’t. Jyren is off doing what he thinks is the right thing to do to stop this war before it gets too big...and you and I are doing the same. But, hopefully, you know that I’m not nearly as jumpy as he is. Before I act, we are out here finding out as much information about this situation as we can. You can’t fight an enemy you know nothing about, and until we really understand what these Yuuzhan Vong are and how they work, every single attack against them will fail.”
The serious nature of her voice brought a single thought to Tobias, “...is Jyren going to be alright?”
“He can take care of himself,” Marix answered quickly enough to not hint at any possible doubts that just might be hanging around in the back of her skull, “But he also doesn’t think things through before he does something.”
Suddenly, Tobias started to grin, “You’re watching his tail, aren’t you?”
“Someone has to watch it for him since he forgets its there half the time,” she answered with a grin, “But before we worry about him, we need to find this Rodian.”
“But I thought the ships wouldn’t help.”
Marix shrugged, “Its worth looking into...and besides, this is exactly the kind of person we need to find to get good information from that isn’t filtered through a panicked government.”
Marix shook her head and ran a hand through her hair, idly watching the black strands fall in front of her face before just pushing it all out of the way and turning to look to her side, where Tobias sat in Jyren’s seat. It was...strange. She was so used to turning and seeing Jyren staring right back to match her gaze when she looked that somehow it felt wrong to have Tobias there, staring off out the viewport at the nothingness of hyperspace.
It had been a fairly long time since she’d really looked at the young Alraxian...and seeing his profile now was almost haunting. He had the sharp features that were eerily similar to Ket Halpak’s, something that hadn’t appeared until recently. But there was something else, too...a softness in the eyes and the general shape of his face that reminded Marix more of her mother than anyone else. Of course, she was intelligent enough to know that it was her own features(or rather, that of the clone Delta Nine), but Marix still did her best to avoid those thoughts as much as possible.
And yet, defying all logic, there was more about Tobias that she couldn’t help noticing. The way his hair looked, including the metallic blue stripe down the center of his jet black hair, looked just like Marix knew Jyren had looked many years before she’d ever met him. And his attitude was also very disturbingly similar...though those two were likely due to Tobias’ very strong attachment to Jyren, it was still not something that Marix had expected at all.
“You are not a Jedi, Toby,” she finally said, in a calm voice that she was doing her best to hold...knowing that any adversarial tone would develop into a screaming match faster than if it was Jyren.
Tobias finally turned to face her and gave her a sharp look with two blue eyes that were, again, almost exactly the same colour as Jyren’s, “I know that!”
Alright, so it didn’t seem to matter what tone she used. Part of her couldn’t help but wonder if she had been that bad at that age...and then Marix quickly reminded herself that she had been much, much worse. There were many reasons why she’d left Alraxia when she was Toby’s age, and attitude was definitely not the least of them.
More carefully, Marix tried again, “This is not a game, Toby. We aren’t here playing around like back at home. There is a war here, and we’re trying to stop it from reaching our home...and like it or not, you are still a child. You cannot jump into a fight thinking you’re Jyren and expect to survive. Not here, and not now.”
“But when you were—“
”When I was your age, I was trained to be a killer,” Marix cut him off sharply. Not giving a chance for him to argue that, which he couldn’t, of course, she took a deep breath and attempted a more civil tone again, “You are not me. You are not Jyren. You are yourself, and trying to be either of us is just going to get yourself killed. I know you want to help, and I’m thankful for that, but you aren’t ready yet.”
Tobias sighed heavily and looked down at the deck, “Then why did you even let me come with you...?”
“Because you’d have snuck onboard Loki, anyway,” she answered flatly, giving a quick mental glare to the ship around them which would have easily allowed Toby in without letting her know, and then added, “And you can’t learn what its like out here without seeing it for yourself first. Stories can only teach so much.”
Through the Force, there was a sudden burst of at least slight understanding from Tobias and he looked up at her with a new brightness in his eyes, “You mean...?”
Marix nodded, holding back any hint of a smile, “Yes, I do. Both Jyren and I have taught you to defend yourself, but you won’t know how to use any of that until you’ve seen what things are actually like.”
[We’ll be ready to exit hyperspace in another five minutes.] Loki cut in at the best time he could find, speaking only to Marix at this point.
She glanced up, again out of habit, and then responded the same way...despite knowing that Toby would know he was keeping him out of the loop. [Its going to be up to you when we get there, Loki. I figure we’re looking for something big, but in all the mess of the Cron Drift it’ll be hard to spot anything.]
[You know I don’t miss anything.] the ship answered confidently.
Marix couldn’t help a smile at that.
But then Tobias cut in with a word that still, after eleven years, made her feel uneasy, “Mom?”
At least she didn’t outwardly cringe at that anymore, “What?”
“You don’t really think this is going to help us at all, do you?”
The question was as simple as the answer. In all honesty, Marix was amazed he’d waited that long to ask it.
No. No, it wouldn’t help. They could get a thousand ships to defend the gateway, but there simply weren’t enough Knights to crew them all...not even counting the amount of time it would take to both desensitize them to the fact that the ships were metal and then actually train them to use the systems. Sure, the Empire was full of different species, but it was the Alraxian Empire. The Alraxians were the strength and the point to which all the others held, and the Knights were, almost exclusively, Alraxian. Even changing that would not save the Empire from the Yuuzhan Vong if an attack really came.
The Mrrakesh were not stupid...they would be watching what was going on just as much as the Alraxians were. An offensive on the gateway and that side of the Alraxian Empire would mean that the Mrrakesh could easily attack the border on the other side and divide the small defense force that the Empire had between two overwhelming fights. Not that the Mrrakesh were that belligerent anymore, but their leader changed so much that it was hard to tell what kind of maniac might decide that it was finally time to get rid of those damned felines that had been a constant bother for thousands of years.
Marix sighed and leaned back in her seat before looking back over to the young Tobias, “If you ask that question, you already know the answer.”
It took a moment, but eventually the young Alraxian nodded slowly. And, of course, a question was quick to follow, “Then what are we really doing out here?”
“Giving the people of the Empire hope that it will help,” she said in a slow voice, almost sounding like she didn’t believe her own words.
That, Tobias understood, but he still was able to pick up that she wasn’t being completely truthful, “That can’t be all.”
Finally, Marix allowed herself another smile aimed towards Toby, “It isn’t. Jyren is off doing what he thinks is the right thing to do to stop this war before it gets too big...and you and I are doing the same. But, hopefully, you know that I’m not nearly as jumpy as he is. Before I act, we are out here finding out as much information about this situation as we can. You can’t fight an enemy you know nothing about, and until we really understand what these Yuuzhan Vong are and how they work, every single attack against them will fail.”
The serious nature of her voice brought a single thought to Tobias, “...is Jyren going to be alright?”
“He can take care of himself,” Marix answered quickly enough to not hint at any possible doubts that just might be hanging around in the back of her skull, “But he also doesn’t think things through before he does something.”
Suddenly, Tobias started to grin, “You’re watching his tail, aren’t you?”
“Someone has to watch it for him since he forgets its there half the time,” she answered with a grin, “But before we worry about him, we need to find this Rodian.”
“But I thought the ships wouldn’t help.”
Marix shrugged, “Its worth looking into...and besides, this is exactly the kind of person we need to find to get good information from that isn’t filtered through a panicked government.”