Chapter 418: Aftermath
“He’s gone.”
The words forced Marix’s eyes to refocus on the moment rather than continue to stare forward, but into nothing at all. She had to pause for a moment, as her mind came to the realization that she was, in fact, still there. Alive.
Alive.
She bit her bottom lip and looked out the viewport again. The flames had died down now...and now it was simply wreckage floating. She could make out distinct pieces of what had been the Stardust and then the rocks of the Vong ship...though the rest of it was continuing onwards towards the gate. Thankfully, though, the collision had not only knocked the ship off course and severely damaged it, but it had also given the New Republic ships time to turn and fire on the Vong ship from behind. It was now in as many pieces as the Stardust.
It had worked....and she was still alive...
Finally, Marix realized what it was that had pulled her out of the haze she had been in since leaving the Stardust. She turned to her side to look to Tobias, who’s face was still stained with tears and a small amount of blue covered blood thanks to a good scratch she’d given him for attempting to go back through a group of Vong Warriors. He had been Alraxian since they had left that bridge, mainly to try and pull himself away since he was stronger in his normal body...but not nearly as strong as her, and so it had been a futile effort.
Overall, he looked a mess, and the feelings radiating through the Force from him heightened that. But he wasn’t looking at her, instead, his large, silvery eyes were staying wide open like they used to when he was little...looking at the view in front of them. Marix doubted he’d turned away since they’d left...she hadn’t.
“He’s not gone,” she finally managed to find her voice, though her throat ached slightly from the amount of yelling she’d had to do to get Tobias off of that starship and onto Loki.
Marix saw him open his mouth to say something, fail to communicate anything at all, and then attempt again. However, the only words that came out were the same ones as befoer, and at the same whisper, “He’s gone.”
“Toby,” Marix put on her firm voice for a moment, immediately identifying a problem that needed fixing. This was what she knew how to deal with. Well, no...not Toby...but fixing things. But he didn’t do anything or respond, and so she spoke up louder and in a much stronger voice, “Tobias BlueIce. Look at me.”
He did.
It was likely more out of reflex, as she so rarely used his name like that or a tone so similar unless he was about to be killed. But when he turned to look at her, Tobias found an expression on her face that did not match the voice. It was almost something that could be described as calming, but truthfully, it had the usual edge of ice that always found its way onto her face when she was forcing back her emotional reactions and focusing on the job to be done.
Knowing she had his attention finally, she held his gaze and said in a much softer voice that would have been completely alien to the old Shadow, “He’s not gone, Toby. Look at me. I’m here. I’m still here. And until I’m not here, Jyren is not gone. Do you understand?”
He just stared back at her, the same lost and terrified expression on his face. It was then that Loki cut in, very carefully, and only to Marix. [I understand lying to him...but don’t lie to yourself.]
Marix was intelligent enough not to react to that so Toby could see. Loki was a good friend, and knew her better than anyone, with only Jyren coming close to that. The ship could read her like no one else, and never let her get away with something stupid. He had felt the thoughts that were openly flying across her mind. He knew what she was thinking...and would have even without his knowledge of her.
[There are, and have always been, ways around the strong connection created through two Linked Alraxians.]
Again, Marix held herself and her reaction to an internal one only. He was right. There were ways around it. There had been for thousands of years. But they were difficult, complicated, and not something one just suddenly did. She would have known. It would have been obvious...
[But he isn’t there.] Loki cut in again, reading her as if he, too, shared a link. It didn’t take long for him to elaborate on it, and Marix kicked herself for being so stuck in the panicked thoughts that she didn’t really understand how Loki was getting all of this. [I can find nothing in that wreckage that is alive. Nothing. Do not think I haven’t tried with everything I have...but I can find nothing.]
It was then that Tobias saw a change in Marix. It was subtle, but when you got used to a neutral to angry expression on her face all of the time, it was easy to notice when neither were present. But like any change in her expression that she had not meant to occur, it did not last long. Marix pushed past the immediate emotional reaction and was back to normal. She said nothing to Loki, but instead spoke again to Toby, “He’s not gone.”
* * * *
Not far from his home in the Blackflame territory towards the southern edges of Alraxia and half a planet away from the Palace, Navik Keros sat in the sand at the edge of the water watching his two grandchildren. They were in one of the many tide pools that was scattered across the long, generally empty coastline. It wasn’t too terribly common for Alraxians to come out this far from the safety of their settlements, what with all of the predators that still roamed around, but it wasn’t unheard of either. There were four Knights not far away keeping an eye on things for that extra measure of protection.
He smiled to himself as he looked at the two little Alraxians in the water that was knee deep when they stood up...which was something they were both still having a little trouble doing, especially with the way the sand was sinking under them. Currently, the little girl, Andrea, was sitting off to the side idly pawing at something in the water. Andrea. Technically, her name was Andreanyl BlueIce, but Navik knew full well why they always called her Andrea, and he still was greatly appreciative of the fact that she was named after the grandmother she’d never know. And she looked so much like Marix...
Andrea’s twin brother, Saaran, was a bit more active. The little Alraxian, that looked much more like Tobias had when he was younger with his black and blue fur, was on the other side of the pool pouncing and obviously trying to catch one of the tiny fish that sometimes got stuck in the water there. Or maybe he was just pouncing and splashing. He seemed to be much more of the active type already, the exact opposite of his sister, who seemed quite content to just sit by herself and find ways that did not involve splashing water everywhere to entertain herself.
For a moment, Navik looked off to the ocean. He had never liked the water that much. But this was one of Andrea’s favorite spots...not the little girl over in the pool, but his long dead wife. She had been born on a planet covered in water and had always found a reason to come out here...and so, even though Navik cared little for it, he found himself, a good thirty standard years after she had died, still coming out here. And besides, the children seemed to love the change of scenery.
And then he heard a dreaded noise. Crying. Loud crying.
Turning back to look to the children, he saw little Andrea wailing at the top of her lungs...which were very, very strong for such a small child. First instinct told Navik that Saaran was splashing her again, as he had enjoyed doing that for the first hour they’d been out here and it had driven the little girl up the wall to the point where she stopped splashing back and simply started wailing like that. But no...no, Saaran was on the other side of the tide pool and had spun around, his eyes wide open with shock...not guilt.
Navik’s feet were working already, getting him up and heading over to where the children were. His eyes scanned the area around Andrea, noting that nothing seemed any different than it was before, and she was never the type to simply burst into tears for no good reason. She was a strong girl for her age, and so this was...worrying, to say the least.
The second he reached her, Navik knelt down and picked her up. He had to resist the urge to cringe at the volume of her voice when he had her up against his shoulder. Very gently, he reached up to stroke her hair and said quietly, “Shhh...its okay, little one...its okay...”
At his touch, she had gotten a little quieter, and he immediately noticed her hands were clinging to him by the very sharp claws. The pain was easy to ignore, but it was another thing to set off alarm bells in Navik’s mind. After a few minutes of simply repeating himself and stroking her hair, Andrea’s wailing had quieted to simple crying and whimpering.
At this point, Navik decided to try to figure out what was wrong. The twins were young and had very limited vocabularies, both in speaking Trade and Alraxian, but they knew a few words in both languages and were usually able to get across simple things like what was wrong. So, Navik shifted Andrea on his shoulder slightly so she could look up at him and asked softly, “What’s wrong, little one?”
She managed to sniffle a few too many times before mumbling in a tiny voice, “...want daddy...”
For the one of the twins that usually spoke her thoughts in broken Alraxian, hearing her speak Trade was a surprise to Navik. But then he began to become more worried. The twins were very, very attached to their parents. In addition to that, Andrea had a way of never, ever leaving Jyren’s arm if he was around. And despite being so very attached to him, she never said anything when he had to go away, because every single time, he sat her down and promised her he’d be back soon. She never liked it from the look on her face, but never asked anything about him while he was gone. She simply waited for him to come back like he said he would.
And, suddenly, Navik was terrified for his son.