Thanks for being nice to me last night, guys. (I logged off and didn't see the posts till now, but thanks, all the same.)
The annoying thing with me at the moment is that there's nothing to talk about, really - I just suddenly hit rock bottom about two weeks ago and I've been floating near there ever since. It's been a long time since I felt like this with no explanation (last time it happened I was sick, too, and most other times I've at least had something to be miserable about), and it's upsetting and kind of scary to just be floored by no reason. I just suddenly feel like I've got no life, no hope and no future.
I've had a bunch of people tell me I should see my doctor and get myself some anti-depressants, but I'm resisting that for all I'm worth (I don't like pills at the best of times, never mind mood-altering drugs; also I don't care much what happens to me). I can't go on like this, but I can't think of any other way to go on, either, and I don't have the necessary guts to stop.
*sigh*
I don't like this.