The Hive is hurt.

[Ginnel]

*mopes into the Hive*

@*£$"#!!


Dam horrible feeling in my stomach, woke up and it was like everythings fine that lasted 5 seconds.
But I'm pretty much determined to keep on trying, but whether this is because this is out of fear that I will never love someone, out of fear for making such a nice person sad or because I think theres something there is unbeknownst to me.

EDIT “I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear... And when it is gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear is gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”

 

[Aeson]

What were your last relationships like? sounds like things have gotten physical with this one. Is it the first time? What sets this one apart from the others?

 

[Blackrat]

EDIT “I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear... And when it is gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear is gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”

It is by will alone I set my mind in motion. It is by the juice of sapho that thoughts acquire speed, the lips acquire stains, the stains become a warning. It is by will alone I set my mind in motion.

 

[Phaezen]

“Beer is the mind-killer. Beer is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my beer... And when it is gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the bebr is gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.

It is by caffiene alone I set my mind in motion. It is by the bean of javathat thoughts acquire speed, the hands acquire shaking, the shaking becomes a warning. It is by caffiene alone I set my mind in motion.

 

[Aeson]

“Beer is the mind-killer. Beer is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my beer... And when it is gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the bebr is gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.

It is by caffiene alone I set my mind in motion. It is by the bean of javathat thoughts acquire speed, the hands acquire shaking, the shaking becomes a warning. It is by caffiene alone I set my mind in motion.

 

[Blackrat]

Okay, I have to agree with you...

 

[Aeson]

Fringe is growing on me. I think the part that makes it different enough from The X-files is Walter and the humor. I never cared for X-files.

 

[Tinker Gnome]

Fringe is growing on me. I think the part that makes it different enough from The X-files is Walter and the humor. I never cared for X-files.

And I am growing on Aeson.

 

[Aeson]

And I am growing on Aeson.

Like that parasite I just saw on Fringe? You're wrapped around my heart?

 

[Ginnel]

What were your last relationships like? sounds like things have gotten physical with this one. Is it the first time? What sets this one apart from the others?

Ok my first proper relationship was long distance, 2 and a half hours travel and it lasted about 6 months when I told her it was over...
....by email.....
....when she was out of the country....
....on another continent.

Yeah the email I got back was fun and the phone call as well.
Well we're speaking now and behaving like adults but I was young then around 20.
That relationship was physical the, apart from a drunken fling I don't remember she was my first, I've been physical enough times since then to realise it isn't the end all and be all and without a relationship to go with it while fun, its pretty much pointless.

This current one has gotten physical, although mediocre might explain my performance for our first encounter, I'm a trier and have no qualms in trying again practice makes perfect I've found

I think you might be right Aeson that its nerves or more likely fear, I've found something I've never had before a woman I like in close proximity to me and my only similar experience of this is that I tell her its over and she gets hurt...a lot.

To be honest my post at the top of this page has helped alot and the horrible empty feeling in my stomach is disapating So we'll see how this goes