Ok my first proper relationship was long distance, 2 and a half hours travel and it lasted about 6 months when I told her it was over...
....by email.....
....when she was out of the country....
....on another continent.
Yeah the email I got back was fun and the phone call as well.
Well we're speaking now and behaving like adults but I was young then around 20.
That relationship was physical the, apart from a drunken fling I don't remember she was my first, I've been physical enough times since then to realise it isn't the end all and be all and without a relationship to go with it while fun, its pretty much pointless.
This current one has gotten physical, although mediocre might explain my performance for our first encounter, I'm a trier and have no qualms in trying again practice makes perfect I've found
I think you might be right Aeson that its nerves or more likely fear, I've found something I've never had before a woman I like in close proximity to me and my only similar experience of this is that I tell her its over and she gets hurt...a lot.
To be honest my post at the top of this page has helped alot and the horrible empty feeling in my stomach is disapating

So we'll see how this goes