It's hard to be positive right now. Rev in the hospital and Goldmoon in where ever she is. I wasn't real nice to Rev the last time he was here. Makes things worse.
Life is never easy. I'm not saying you should disregard your feelings.
I never had the chance to talk to Rev myself, but from the other thread he seems like a real nice guy. I don't think he'd want you to feel sorry for him. I'm pretty sure he'd want you to see the light at the end of the tunnel. There's always hope. Just try to think well of him; I'm sure he can use all of that that he can get.