I feel guilty for having the nerve to post something like this, as I am the lazy, " good for nothin' " in my family, but oh well. What is a little bit more to feel bad about compared to a lifetime of failure and waste.
It really ticks me off when my parents and now sister go off and spend money, lots of money, on things we don't need, or in today's case don't need to improve on, instead of spending money on things we do. For instance, my sister is talking about going out and buying a new barbecue, for like $350. We have a barbeque, only four or five years old. It gets the job done. No one in my family is really fanatical about the barbecue. We use it a fair amount, but we use the stove a fair amount too. That doesn't mean we're rushing out to buy a newer, more widgetized stove.
On the other hand, we live in the country. We have dial-up, and I just realized not so long ago, we have SUB-STANDARD dial-up, 28.8k, and apparently thats all we can ever get out here (If the capitals weren't clue enough, this little revelation really, really ticked me off. I have not even seen the numbers 28.8k in years, so how was I to know they still existed?) Now, to everything we need for wireless internet would cost a fair bit more than $350, but it would provide something that is VASTLY better to what we have. We'd all be able to use the internet at once, my sister could talk to her friends at night for however long she wants, and we might actually have a chance at piece in our time in this house. Everyone but my Dad uses the internet all the time, but he yells at the rest of us for arguing over it.
But how foolish of me to think that an investment so blindingly obvious would be more important than an upgrade to the barbeque. I basically resign myself to the fact that we are only ever going to get high-speed internet when I put out the money to get all the equipment, and I doubt anyone will be looking to pay me back for their share of the cost (whereas I would be willing to pay half of the installation of the hardware for high-speed when I have the money, and I always settle my monetary debts with family when I can). Worse, if we are ever going to have a pool table, I am going to have to pay the hundreds and hundreds of dollars to get a new green, new bumpers and assembly. Because, you know, after over eighteen years of living in this house, we still have not put the damn thing together! Christ, I could of been a freakin' pool champion by now if I had grown up with that thing!
It feels like everyone else was blessed with what it takes to work hard and make money, yet I was the only one blessed with the sense to spend money. I may make frivolous small purchases, but everyone else makes frivolous small purchases AND big purchases.
You can all start flaming me now.