Ambrus
Explorer
The only time I've ever gotten self-destructive with a character was when the DM was driving a runaway railroad plot. For me at least, having my sincere role-playing efforts thwarted by a DM determined to have the PCs behave in a certain manner regardless of what they try gets me very angry and frustrated rather quickly. When I feel I've exhausted all reasonable efforts on behalf of my PC to affect or change the plot thread to little or no effect then I begin to take unreasonable actions that may in fact prove self-destructive, simply as a desperate attempt to affect a plot that appears immutable.
It's not a conscious decision on my part, the situation simply begins spiralling out of control. When it's all said a done and a DM seems unwilling to allow PCs to effectively affect the campaign setting then the life of one's character appears to be the only thing left that the player can control, at least as far as ending it goes. In effect, I'd rather jump off a railroading plot device to my death then be forced to endure the ride. I don't know if any of this makes sense to others or not. :\
It's not a conscious decision on my part, the situation simply begins spiralling out of control. When it's all said a done and a DM seems unwilling to allow PCs to effectively affect the campaign setting then the life of one's character appears to be the only thing left that the player can control, at least as far as ending it goes. In effect, I'd rather jump off a railroading plot device to my death then be forced to endure the ride. I don't know if any of this makes sense to others or not. :\