You can't run but you can Hive

[Relique du Madde]

I recieved word from rev again.

[sblock="What he basically said.."]
He wishes he had the chance to tell the truth and apologize properly to everyone for what he did including all the toying he did using the alts.

He wants everyone in the hive to know that he is sorry 100 times over, and misses everyone regardless of how they feel about him.
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In other news, I feel like going over to Roscoe's chicken.

 

[megamania]

I don't recognize the referrence.


As for your e-mail..... I already have it along with physical mailing address. Thankyou for the thought.


I am sorry I crapped on folks here but things are bad for me at this point. I'm in a dark place myself and see no way out of it. That's life.... at least my life. Folks laugh at it and think I am either full of BS or at the least exaggerate it but I do not.

EN World has been the closest thing to a life preserver in my sea of madness and I feel someone has let the air of it.

I wish I could get help but can not as 1) my insurance doesn't cover it 2) I can't afford it 3) I have no time for it and finally 4) I doubt it is something that work in a timely mnanner.


I have come to wonder if others at EN World are also in different stages of crap. This may be why there is denial and/or lets laugh at it instead kind of mental defense going on. Folks are handling the Fru / Rev thing diffferently since no one saw it coming. I did but misjudged the degree or depth of it. Others here I had seen as being much deeper in the mental crap that he ever was.

I will no doubt be kicked out of here eventually which sucks. I did / do like being here but my frustration currently is making it hard for me to be rational about it. No matter what I do to "correct" it it always comes back and usually worse than before.

Anyway.... before being banned I am self banning myself. I will remove this address from my favorites to make it a bigger issue to return here (due to Modem- 10 minutes of site jumping) and maybe only when I feel I have chilled enough I will return.

sorry if I went any one's egos or feelings in the process.

Andy

 

[Dannyalcatraz]

Mega- don't go until they kick you out!

Everyone goes through the occasional s--tstorm and it weighs on them. How they handle it depends upon a variety of factors.

I'm in one- well, I've been in one for some time- but I don't feel the need to share.

But the point remains- if we're your life preserver, don't let go! Rev may have let some of the air out, but I know I'm full of it (mostly hot, too) and keep putting it back onto/into the site.

 

[The_Warlock]

First off, Mega, why would you get kicked out?

That makes no sense. This little corner of EnWorld is the home of the Stream of Consciouness chat.

And that may be the issue. When one or more people are following a conversation or two amidst a stream of posts, they tend to stick with the one they are with, or don't even see some posts if they don't specifically go back far enough to follow multiple threads.

Beyond that, I don't know what to say, except do what you feel you need to do, including hang out and add to the stream of consciousness as you feel up to it.

 

[Goldmoon]

ignored.

I was ignored as everyone decided to change subject and move on.


You know what REALLY bugs me here-

The only person (s) that recognized me and would think about what I had to say have either been banned or is lost whenever Goldmoon shows up.

I am having possibly THE worst time of my life currently and I have no outlet. I have kept my time here limited because I didn't want to bring people down and I felt it woiuld be ignored anyway.

Back at some point undetermined.

Geez, Mega, I had no idea you felt that way. You could have said something to me. I would have taken a break from the hive for awhile if thats what you wanted. I don't want for anyone to be ignored.

 

[The_Warlock]

I recieved word from rev again...

I understand it's paraphrasing, but sure sounds like a tweenager trying to express extreme sorrow to an authority figure while actually being completely unapologetic.

Apology refused. Return to sender. COD if possible.

Meh.

 

[The_Warlock]

Well, I'm outta here. Breakfast is early, and I'm running a game tomorrow.

Take care all, however you need to.

 

[Ginnel]

The NIN/JA 2009 tour with Nine Inch Nails, Jane's Addiction, and Street Sweeper begins May 8th in West Palm Beach.

I thought this might interest some of you people in the States.

I would give quite a lot to see one of those shows (although i don't know who street sweeper are)

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Mega my comment was one of many, now I'm gonna be supportive but i'm not going to ignore things I think are wrong.
I'm going to take a guess that you focused on my rather unflattering post than the 3 or 4 posts or undiluted support for you.

Don't go, I like your posts/your presence here, but as said before I'm not going to ignore stuff that I personally think is out of line.

 

[Relique du Madde]

Andy seriously. You're not the only person in the hive with some form of a mental illness. I personally and bipolar (I have no medical insurance, so I suffer in silence, and even if I did I against taking mind altering medication). Right now my life sort of sucks.

I work form my family, so my inheritance depends on if I decide to not quit. My mom nags me about graduating from collage. I barely make ends meet and was forced into bankruptcy, and as a result am struggling to get a school loan to finish school. And tonight I got rear ended by a skinhead who was speeding in a pick up truck and ended up with my car's rear all smashed up while barely managing to avoid crashing into a tree when my car was forced onto the street's island. Then, the bastard fled and I got bitched at from my mom because the tow truck took my car away since the officer wouldn't allow me to drive it home.

So yeah, life sucks all around.

Besides, there is no reference to Rosco's chicken. It was a place I've always wanted to eat at which has a tendency to appear in some movies that take place in Long Beach. We didn't go there. Instead my gf and I went to eat at Mel's Drive in on Sunset then drove down Sunset towards Santa Monica before heading back and getting into an accident 5 - 10 minutes from my house.

 

[Relique du Madde]

Btw... this was the song that was playing when I got rear ended..

[ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dUPHrLr2nAw"]Voltaire - The ship's going down.[/ame]

[sblock="Lyrics for Goldmoon"]

A gargantuan hole in the bow, will the ocean to enter allow.
Oh but more a sin than letting it in it's letting our good fortune out.
The nest to the storm did succumb, while the crow hid his fear in the rum.
And the mast, it broke and threw out the bloke and well now he's surely my chum.

Love letters from under his bed, holds the cabin boy over his head
A futile try to keep it dry what tears have already wet.
They were penned by a girl in Merak, and the Javanese value their tact.
She'll conclude he's horribly rude 'cause he's sure as hell not writing back.

(Chorus)
'Cause this ship's going down
All on account of the weather
Though we'll drown
There's no need to frown
'Cause we're all going together
And I won't say "Woe is me"
As I disappear into the sea
'Cause I'm in good company
As we're all going together

I've had women of every kind, but the only one truly was mine
Is the one at home who'll be alone when I am full-up with brine.
For my son I had always a plan, for to raise him as best as I can.
Oh well you can bet, my only regret is to not see him grow to a man.

(Chorus)
'Cause this ship's going down
All on account of the weather
Though we'll drown
There's no need to frown
'Cause we're all going together
And I won't say "Woe is me"
As I disappear into the sea
'Cause I'm in good company
As we're all going together

I was sinking down into the brine, when a curious sight caught my eye.
Seaman Shaft had found him a raft and was makin' a speedy goodbye.
At the risk of sounding absurd, I have always been good as my word.
So a fishgig I, lanced into his eye and I knocked his ass overboard.

(Chorus)
'Cause this ship's going down
All on account of the weather
Though we'll drown
There's no need to frown
'Cause we're all going together
And I won't say "Woe is me"
As I disappear into the sea
Oh hell!
'Cause you've all been so good to me
So we're all going together.
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