Well, when you were out - there was a little mutiny of sorts.
I sort of insisted we take a pragmatic approach and eat some of the lizardmen to make our rations go further. I wanted to wait there to more you and Kurg out of the complex.
They wouldn't listen at all, so when we took stock of of he food and it became evident that I was the one with the majority of the extras I told them they'd have to do things my way. That didn't go over well of course and well, we have not really been the same since.
Neither of them liked that I was giving them no choice. In the end, I never really would have insisted anyone do something distasteful and caved anyways. I just thought they'd go along if it looked more grim.
Now, I have lost face, and don't know how to get it back - I rather think all my ideas and suggestions will be suspect at this point. I never wanted that to happen.
I lost my temper back there with the food, they got their feelings hurt and now I fear we are going to have a harder time getting anything done.
I really don't know where to go from here - I have just been avoiding them for now. Going along with whatever they come up with.
I guess I just needed someone to confide in is all Lokin - since Payne won't talk to me anymore. I feel silly after the incident with the food though and don't know how to get things back on track.
I miss her company - perhaps I was imagining it but I rather thought she might have started to have some feelings for me up until then. I look into her eyes and I see something, something shining and bright - a fire, something I want...
I think I am in love with her Lokin.
Then her siding with the purple one in my time of need was like a betrayal and now it is a jealously eating at me - I don't know what to do.
I'm hoping that I can spring some arcane power out at some point in the future and regain my face and status in the party?
Which brings us here....practicing in the woods
Lets head back before we loose the day - I think the others are ready to head back to RDI and sell that shield. I could use the cash, I think I might like to get me another bow. I had borrowed yours for a while while you were out and it made me remember how much I missed mine.
I might be a good idea for me to switch to a ranged style as well to complement my new spells. Who knows? Lets Head back...