Minx and Kierwin
Kierwin came up the back stairs of the inn, hoping to avoid the rest of the party if they were downstairs having breakfast. She’d planned to be back before anyone had gotten up, but she’d gotten back later than she’d expected. There was one confrontation she couldn’t avoid, so about an hour and a half after dawn, Minx finally heard the doorknob rattle. When Kierwin opened the door, she found Minx standing there, arms crossed, foot tapping and a no-nonsense look on her face, she looked like she’d been waiting for awhile. Kierwin walked into the room and quietly closed the door. She took a deep breath, and leaned back against the door, knowing what that look meant.
Minx asked her pointedly, “Where have you been?”
“I’m sure you know where I’ve been,” Kierwin answered, knowing that she couldn’t lie to Minx, even though she wished she could. She wondered how much of the truth she could keep to herself. She’d had a lot of surprises this morning, and hadn’t come close to accepting it all yet, for that matter, she didn’t understand it all yet. One of the most wonderful nights of her life had turned into one of the most puzzling and troubling mornings of her life.
Minx didn’t give any ground or change her expression, Kierwin could feel the emotions in the room as well as see them in her friend’s eyes and face. Minx was disappointed in her, and none too happy, in fact the word angry quickly came to mind. “Oh, I’m pretty sure I know where you’ve been and who you’ve been with, and were you NOT THINKING about what you were doing??? What did you do? Do I even want to know what you did? Did you sleep or did you just walk up and down the beach? You look pretty rested. No wait! You DON’T look very rested!!!"
“Kierwin, did you sleep with him?!” She finally stopped, waiting for an answer.
Minx said all this without even taking a breath. Kierwin’s mind was reeling. She couldn’t think, the events of this morning were whirling through her head. She wanted to say that they had just talked, that nothing had happened, that it was none of Minx’s business, anything but the truth, but she couldn’t lie to her best friend, and some of it was Minx’s business, not all of it, at least not yet, but some of it. She opened her mouth and at first nothing came out. She closed it, took a breath, and tried again.
“I can’t lie to you…won’t lie to you. I was with Turk. I…slept…with Turk last night.” She said it quietly, in a shaky voice, not happy about telling Minx, she didn’t want to, but what good would it do to try to hide it? She wasn’t sure how much to tell Minx about the revelations she’d had this morning, and she’d thought about all the way here. She knew of at least one that she wasn’t going to tell her about, not right now, not if it killed her. That one was between her and Turk alone, for as long as possible.
“Ok, now then let me just ask you a question. HAVE YOU THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT YOU DID?! Did you think about the possible consequences? Have you thought about not only could you possibly be pregnant, but if you are you would have a bastard half-elf?” Minx asked several loud questions that Kierwin was sure they could hear downstairs.
Kierwin answered, avoiding direct answers as to the consequences, she might not be able to lie, but she could withhold information. She thought about that walk in the moonlight, looking up into his eyes, and the way his arms had felt around her. Yes, she’d wanted him as much as he’d wanted her, and she’d made it very clear what she’d wanted. She wasn’t letting him take the blame for this, this time it had been her choice to make. “Look Minx, don’t blame Turk for anything, it wasn’t his fault, it was mine. Yes, I thought this through. We went for a walk, it turned into more than that, I wanted to be with him. I accept the consequences of my actions, whatever they turn out to be.”
Minx sighed, “You made your decision, I can’t blame him for the fact that he is what he is. He’s a love ‘em and leave ‘em guy. He doesn’t care what woman he’s with. He won’t care if you wind up pregnant, and he won’t marry you.”
Kierwin (wondering if she should feel insulted about the "he doesn't care what woman he's with" bit) said ”I don’t expect you to understand why I did what I did. Turk isn’t what you think he is. You won’t ever believe me, but he does have goodness and honor in his soul, and that is part of what drew me to him in the first place. I don’t love Turk. I don’t expect him to ever fall in love with me, I know better than that. He’s not the type of man to fall in love and settle down, and I wouldn’t want any man to marry me just because I was pregnant.”
“Something happened last night because of Turk, because of the way he is. It isn’t what you think, so don’t say anything yet. This is something that is going to change our lives forever, and it’s really hard for me to say. It's painful for me to remember.”
It took Kierwin several moments to start talking again. “Do you remember Darial?” Minx said she did, vaguely. Kierwin told her about the lie she'd lived under for so long, slowly unfolding the events she had remembered that morning, she was nearly in tears again, remembering. Before she finished, Minx guessed that Snap was Kierwin’s child.
Kierwin wanted to tell her why Turk had been the key to unlocking those memories, the near panic that had set in, and that he had somehow sensed it and made it alright. But she knew that wouldn’t mean the same thing to Minx that it meant to her. She left it at, “If it hadn’t been for Turk last night, I couldn’t have handled all of this. In fact, I wouldn’t even know this, I’m sorry, it’s hard to explain. Turk doesn’t know, nobody knows but the two of us. I needed to tell you first.”
Minx asked if Kierwin planned to tell Snap and if Kierwin wanted to have her with when she talked to him. Of course, Kierwin was going to tell him, he needed to know, he deserved to know. They agreed to talk to him together. Minx understood that Kierwin wouldn’t ever go back to the Misty Isle again, that she didn’t consider them her family. Not after what they’d done to her, and to Snap, an innocent child who deserved a real family. Minx said that Kierwin was with her family now, Minx and Snap.
Minx told her she was disappointed in her about what she did with Turk, and how concerned she was that Kierwin was going to end up getting hurt. Kierwin tried again to convince her that he was honorable and good, and to quit worrying about her.
Minx stopped her, Kierwin had misunderstood her feelings all along. “He is a good person, I never said that he didn’t have honor, he is honorable, I just think he dishonors women. He’s going to break your heart. If you do have a child, he’s not going to stand by you, just like he slept with you last night, he’s just going to move on to somebody else.”
Kierwin, startled that Minx kept coming back to that subject said, “Then he will. I don’t expect anything from him, I went into this with my eyes open. No matter what comes of this, I’m on my own. I don’t expect him to stay with me.” Kierwin had misjudged the way that Minx felt about Turk.
Minx said, “I just want you to be really careful. I know that you care for him. You don’t see it now, but he will break your heart.”
“I care for him, but I don’t love him, there’s a difference. There was a reason I was with him last night, and something happened to me this morning when I prayed. I can’t talk about it right now. I will, but I need you to trust me right now. Please?”
Minx said she could understand that, for now. “Try to control your hormones, or at least be careful?”
“I won’t make any promises, but I will be careful.” Kierwin knew full well she wasn’t making any promises, since she had no plans to stay away from Turk.
Kierwin wasn’t proud of the fact that she was pregnant, nor was she ecstatic about it, but she wasn’t ashamed of carrying Turk’s child either, and she'd already shed her tears. There was no going back, and she’d do it again, in spite of the consequences. They had created a life, how could she not love it? What was dishonorable in what they had done? Absolutely nothing, as far as she was concerned. She had no idea what she was going to do, but she had faith that Ehlonna would guide her, and her faith in Ehlonna would be her strength.
Minx said she would kill Turk if the rest of the party found out he’d slept with Kierwin, and Kierwin knew she’d try. Kierwin assured her that Turk wasn’t the type of man to brag about it. Turk would never do something like that that! It made Kierwin shudder to think of what he’d do if he knew Minx said that, in fact she prayed that he never found out that she even thought it!
“We have to talk to Snap, there are some things I need to talk to Turk about, and we’ll to talk again later. Ok?” Kierwin hoped that would pacify Minx for now. It did, but it wouldn't for long. “Can we have breakfast now?”
Kierwin shivered every single time Minx brought up pregnancy, why did she keep saying it? She’d have to be really careful around her.