You know those things were you try and figure out what D&D class best symbolizes you, like what class am I. Sort of like a D&D personality test or just a state of what class you feel you have the most in common with life style with?
Well I always I was a cleric because of my interest in theology and philosophy, or a, Rogue because well I have done things of questionable legality to put it lightly like and B&E when I was a young kid, or a monk because I'm self isolating in some ways.
But yesterday I realized I'm a Ranger. You see my cat died yesterday, he was really old, and I cried harder then when blood relatives passed on, even as I dug his grave.
And I felt an emotion I thought I was incapable of feeling. Loneliness.
I'm more then fine with no folks around, I enjoy my space most of the time and honestly normally I don't feel loneliness like other people and I kind of thought that made me broken.
But I realized that its because having a pet is more then enough to make me feel complete, especially with the internet, and visits certain establishments now and again.
Even the quarintine thanks to Corona, I was kind of enjoying it, I mean not the sad part of it of course.
But then my cat died I now I feel lonely and it dawned on me that is because I am a Ranger. I feel his absence so much that it's almost like a ghost of him haunts me (metaphorically).
I live rural and semirural almost my whole life, I spend hours walking through nature where I feel completely comfortable, even alone in the dark, I was a boy scout when I was a kid, assistant patrol leader, I worship many Gods and rever various spirits, I work in Landscaping, working with stone, earth, plants, and snow removal. I love watching the wild bunnies, foxes, turkey's, hawks, deer, and other critters, where I live. My religous beliefs and rituals are extremely hetrodox and personal, I have no connection to organized religion.
My Dad has accused me of skulking, as I can be stealth sometimes.
Thanks to Camp Pinecrest as a kid, I even know how to use a bow, although I am no doubt rusty.
And most of all without my Animal Companion I feel like an empty husk.
And its not that I hate people or don't enjoy folks company (some more then others), and I can even be charming and funny at times, its just that I don't need it like other people do.
Well I always I was a cleric because of my interest in theology and philosophy, or a, Rogue because well I have done things of questionable legality to put it lightly like and B&E when I was a young kid, or a monk because I'm self isolating in some ways.
But yesterday I realized I'm a Ranger. You see my cat died yesterday, he was really old, and I cried harder then when blood relatives passed on, even as I dug his grave.
And I felt an emotion I thought I was incapable of feeling. Loneliness.
I'm more then fine with no folks around, I enjoy my space most of the time and honestly normally I don't feel loneliness like other people and I kind of thought that made me broken.
But I realized that its because having a pet is more then enough to make me feel complete, especially with the internet, and visits certain establishments now and again.
Even the quarintine thanks to Corona, I was kind of enjoying it, I mean not the sad part of it of course.
But then my cat died I now I feel lonely and it dawned on me that is because I am a Ranger. I feel his absence so much that it's almost like a ghost of him haunts me (metaphorically).
I live rural and semirural almost my whole life, I spend hours walking through nature where I feel completely comfortable, even alone in the dark, I was a boy scout when I was a kid, assistant patrol leader, I worship many Gods and rever various spirits, I work in Landscaping, working with stone, earth, plants, and snow removal. I love watching the wild bunnies, foxes, turkey's, hawks, deer, and other critters, where I live. My religous beliefs and rituals are extremely hetrodox and personal, I have no connection to organized religion.
My Dad has accused me of skulking, as I can be stealth sometimes.
Thanks to Camp Pinecrest as a kid, I even know how to use a bow, although I am no doubt rusty.
And most of all without my Animal Companion I feel like an empty husk.
And its not that I hate people or don't enjoy folks company (some more then others), and I can even be charming and funny at times, its just that I don't need it like other people do.
