Strider_Koln
First Post
She cracked an amused smile "Depsite wanting to wipe out the vampires you don't like, there are a few I want to converse with to help me with my changes." She paused, not sure whether to tell him. "I need to find more gangrel vampires like me, maybe I can control my anger and rashness," she said with a pleading look in her eyes.
Ruby's words sting him greatly, his eyes darting down to the floor and his fists clenching angrily. He can't blame her, he too would like to learn how to control his insanity. Through his clenched fangs he bitterly replies, "It isn't that I want to kill vampires that I merely don't like... I honestly don't like many things nor people... but I kill because of my duty. I am still a priest, and in being such my duty is to protect the spirituality of humans. Vampires are an inherent threat to humans, both spiritually and physically. They exist to damage humans. I cannot allow it... It angers me to no end that God does, like a careless shepherd that turns a blind eye to a wolves overtly ripping to pieces his sheep. When the shepherd doesn't seem to care, the only hope is for the sheep to fight back, no matter how powerless they are in comparison to their assailants. Granted, we haven't killed any people yet... but odds are we will eventually. As we prolong our blasphemous existence the bodies will accumulate..."
Koln looks back at Ruby and gently lays a hand on her shoulder. "I'm sorry... I'm being selfish. My greatest fear is that one night I'll look at you, and you will look at me as if looking at a stranger; you will have no recollection of who I am, and you will leave me for a 'pack' of ones like you. When that happens, all I will have is myself, I will be alone. I cannot rely on Clover, she's already started to change.
Of all the people and things I despise, the thing I hate the most is myself. It is... I hate to say it... but it is very possible that we might even become enemies. When that happens, I'm not entirely certain just how hard I will fight back, but..." Koln smirks, gently petting her shoulder, "If you're going to defeat me, you need to be able to throw better punches. I mean c'mon, that golem was the size of... well a golem! and you completely missed it!" Koln teases, hoping Ruby knows he's not being serious. Despite her lack of finesse, he is pretty certain she could easily overpower him.